Random Archetype Insights

[Ankh]

I think it's possible to be focused on service to others but still have something of a plundering attitude toward the self. For example, relentlessly pushing oneself to serve in a certain way instead of courting the deep mind in order to find out what its desired service is.

I really liked what you have said here. Being a mom to a five-year old and working long night shifts at a hospice, where people are dying, I face catalysts sometimes, that are presenting situations which are beyond my ability to meet my own expectations of myself.

This whole study of the choice has given me, I suspect, an unrealistic view of that making the choice means, as you say, relentlessly pushing the self to serve in a certain way. But perhaps it is also about that one has not fully discovered all the desires of the self, and therefore, not made that choice on all levels of the self....? Once it is done and the choice is made, one does not have to push the self anymore, as it will be an automatic choice in each moment to serve other selves? Until then there is a wisdom to be learned perhaps (which I believe was stated in one of the Q'uo sessions) that being is doing? I dunno...