Story of my Awakening From Day 1

[creationist]

Hi, creationist! I can only offer you a humble welcome from someone who's been posting here for only 12 days.

Personally I think that anyone and everyone's opinion is extremely valuable, as long as one strives enough to gain the benefits and insights as it applies to oneself =) So definitely thank you for spending part of your life here to reply to me!

For a couple months while pathwalking, I was learning the balance and flow of yin and yang. During this time, I would see some cause and identify the effect, see some action and identify the reaction, or visa versa. I would have inspirational thoughts like "Living things (yang) act, nonliving things (yin) are acted upon." and "The (yang) action leads to the (yin) state." I began to see "waves" in the function of the world. For example in the changing of the seasons, I was more aware of the flow from one extreme to dip into the other, come back out towards the first extreme, then back for more than a dip to the opposite extreme. I saw/still see this mostly in the weather and human and animal behavior.

To clarify, I don't know anything about yin and yang, so any comment I have relating to this topic is purely guessing/feeling ok? =)

The reason why I say this is because I think it relates to your post in that you were deep in the negative extreme, then jumped for a dip into positive, only to crest and slide back into negative, then to rise and remain for a while (where you are now) in the positive extreme. I enjoy my awakened state knowing that it's not permanent. More negativity must come and inevitably change me with it in order for me to maintain balance.

Sorry for the long winded post... sometimes I wish I could articulate ideas better!

That is an interesting concept, since I have not thought about such waves at all.

I see my situation more as having 2 large rooms of different 'air', with an invisible force field dividing them. One room is an empty room of light and clean air, perfectly quiet and perfectly calm. Then the other room is a room of more chaotic energy/ocean waves, slowing down my movement as if I was underwater, with painful static and barbs in the water as I walk through it, cutting into my body and especially heart.

As to what you were saying about positive and negative dips, while I am not sure if that's the inherent basis of how life works or not, I see it as a possible condition of human psychological momentum. Sometimes I have the highest hopes for improving myself or others in a specific case, but then the uphill climb proves too much to endure indefinitely and it fades off. So perhaps the yin (positive?) part of the wave can be extended through a higher degree of focus and acceptance of current self. Good ol' stubbornness. =)

There's also something I realized about personal growth. I see myself as having certain stages of spiritual growth, with associations/attachments in each stage.

I sense that there is a 'shortcut' to the next stage of growth, and that I just need to fully relinquish any rights or concern with my current attachments, and just "flip" my mental state to become a higher version of myself. I would be a different person and I often ask myself whether I am willing to give up my current relationships and environment that I've built up, but the answer is always no. I guess I'm selfish in that regard! So no shortcuts for me!

side note: One thing that I really strived to learn over the years, is how to articulate better. And I think knowing about proper copywriting in Advertising definitely helps towards that. Since it's about having your words as brief and as concise as possible, to reach as large an audience as possible. That is one of latest goals, to bring increased understanding to the general population.

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Thank you for sharing your story. I look forward to our learning from each other.

Same here, it is interesting to see the apple from different angles by talking with other explorers =)

I like the way you set the scene. "It was a dark and stormy night..." except without the stormy part.

haha thanks, that's my Marketing habits kicking in.

I just hated everyone and everything without knowing why.

Do you have any insight now about why that occured? Was there something harmful, abusive, unfair about your situation? Or was the anger and frustration from inside of you and not a reaction to something bad in your environment?

I thought about this a bit before replying, and I believe that at the time, I saw it as static noise flowing through the air. I am not certain whether that was just an incorrect perception, since at the time, I was not as accurate in pinpointing mental disruption sources. However, perhaps that perception has some validity, since we are in one big force field and with the state of our general society being so negative! Also perhaps the local vibe was not as positive as could be, since the other people who lived with me as tuned more towards negative.

The way I handled it, was sorta like being in a batting cage, with 10 baseballs pitching machines firing at you constantly at a time. I would ignore others, focus on one mental negativity, and then try and use logic to trace it back to its source, and try to untie that knot. Nothing magical about it, just trying to mentally resolve any built up issues I had.

At this point I haven't read much about New Age or Psychology stuff yet, so I was just using logic to push me forward.

From the rest of your article, I think that you discovered some excellent principles and techniques on your own

thank you, I read somewhere that for some 'techniques' it was important to adapt your own style rather than to forcefully do it word for word. My personality is such that I always like exploration and having my own adapted way of doing things anyways, improving as necessary =)

I used New Age stuff as a bible.

That's not just you, some of it does say it should be taken as a Bible... that it's the one truth of God's Universe and you'd damn well better believe it! (pun intended) One of the things I love about the L/L Research work is the phrase such as, "Please take what you find helpful with your own experience, and set the rest aside."

Yes agreed, due to our narrow point of experience as a person, I believe it's impossible to fully grasp every situation from every angle, so it's more efficient to use the general available material to learn from and adapt to one's own life.

Eventually I went into a career in Marketing, and learned through my years, that to most efficiently communicate the light to people, is through gradual change and convincing.

I am also learning more about marketing. There is some great material in that field. I think it was Gary Halbert or Dan Kennedy who talked about understanding the conversation that is already going on inside the mind of the other person, and joining that conversation.

There's a great book you might want to read called: Positioning: the battle for your mind, by jack trout. An essential book for anyone who wants to do marketing. Explains in the deep mysteries of Marketing in very simply understood language.

Armed with my experiences forged by unconditional love and unfathomable pain/hate.

I imagine that should give you a broad base for empathy with many people's situations.

Thanks again for joining!

Agreed, while I haven't lived in any war zones or third world countries, I have been emotionally and mentally scarred quite a bit, and I would not wish the same of anyone. It took a lot of work and time to heal those scars and now I hope to use all that experience and be of service to others. =)

Here's another interesting thing I just remembered, I like to avoid looking into other people's eyes unless I have to. I have no problem with speaking publicly or having an earnest conversation with a stranger fyi. However I feel that I connect too much into people's inner thoughts when I look into their eyes, seeing the raw side of them. Though I wonder if it's because I have something to hide myself. Or whether I might find myself trying to reach out to them and help them without being asked into their life. Might also spread myself/my time too thinly too. Just thought this tidbit might be interesting/relevant to the empathy topic. =)