The Harbinger

[Shin'Ar]

I find it difficult to voice the matters that I am passionate about without sounding passionate about them. I am uncertain that I can even accomplish this at all.

But, it seems that the particular way that I use words and express myself is not compatible with sharing thoughts in this community so I will try to edit my posts with that in mind so as not to come across as preaching or offensive to those who do not find such passion appealing.

So having said that let me try to reintroduce myself.

I am NOT a preacher. I do NOT belong to any particular religion. I have no agenda other than to speak my mind and tell others how I feel about certain things that come up in discussion. I enjoy doing this because it both hones my own understanding and also gives me a chance to bring Light to others.

I am a simple man with a simple little family and a simple civil service career. My wife and I are foster parents so we basically do volunteer work 24 and 7. My wife is a devout catholic, and if I had to categorize what I practice I would call it a form of gnostic druidism. But it is a far cry from the new age types of druidry that abound today. My understanding of it is quite different from that and more rooted in Rosicrusian/theosophic/Atlantean origins. I am very much on my own path as I have been for over twenty years of passionate study and practice. There has not been a day gone by that I have not been immersed in study, writing and learning. the fact that I am married to a devout Catholic and manage to have a tolerant loving relationship in respect of each other's beliefs shows that I am not anything the way that many of you have depicted me.

I did not come here to preach what I believe. But I did mistakenly think that it was okay to speak about what I believed. I now see that great care must be taken to go over the words I choose and the way I express how I feel.

In mediatation one day I was compelled to go to the computer in search of something. I followed that connection here. and when I got here I was immediately introduced to one with whom I developed an instant recognition and I cared.

A concern for that person gave me reason to follow through with the actions I took to reveal what I saw as a problem for that person. That is now done.

I realize that there are many here who have a very different view of the One Consciousness than what I do. And their ideas around poalrity and choice also seem to be vastly different. But that should not mean that discussions cannot be had about those differences. I am never deliberately insulting or rude. I can try to be funny and sarcastic. And many times when I write I am compelled in such a way that only a few of you here would really understand. a remark made to Monkey one day about a tongue opr something really was suypposed to be a humorous response to something that he had just said in a previous post. For some reason another member made it sound as thougn I just came out and said that to him as an insult. I can't control people that want to do that sort of thing and I won't bother trying to fend off such things.

Now how to go about expressing my passion without being branded a preacher I am a little confused about. But I am willing to concede that it is my obligation to oversee my expression. And I apologize to anyone who has mistaken my passion for something else because I was not clear enough in explanation or because I used terminology that might have been edited differently.

And for the record I really have no further interst in discussing STS or darkness any further because I have already been able to discern who believes what with regard to that. There is no need to duke it out. I think one thing and these others think another. that has been established.

having said that I do hope that it is possible to get some clarification as to how the Brown Notebook fits into this whole picture.

I now have my observations about the Ra Material based upon my interpretation of it. Having a conversation about it now without crossing forum guidelines is the test. That is, unless this community would rather not have their Ra material scrutinized. In that case I have no further need to be here and will try to investigate this material through other means.

I do care. My greatest hope and my life's goal is that humanity will one day live in harmony. I believe that is the means by which we will evolve into our highest being. Individual ascendance is one thing, but understanding that we are all One Consciousness means also undertstanding that our individual choices affects us all. Theerfore our choices should never be made only in service to self. harmony is the true goal because it fulfils our true identity as One. Individuality cannot acconplish that. It is temporary.

Now if that is preaching, than I guess the mods will have to unsubscribe me because I really do not know how to say what I believe in any other way.