Greetings from the Dark

[Lulu]

at which time I saw the creature for the pathetic shadow thing that it was, laughed a cold electric laugh full of menace, and after the briefest battle of wills, I drained the entity of all its energy until it was nothing more than skin covering reptilian bones. I then commenced to consume his remains.

Zaxon,

Why did you "consume" his remains? I too have known a creature like that. He was fascinated with his power over me through creating dichotomies of confusion changing forms, using much trickery and then gloating over his victories via same evil laughter. While it sounds as if you were sparring will-to-will almost as the one in the same; I experienced the entity as a reflection or opposite of myself victim-to-perpetrator.

It is my understanding from my personal experiences that our Spirit bodies are even more Active in all realms then in our corporal bodies. We do create and co-create our dreams through attraction. To me our sub-conscious IS our spirit body. How aware of IT are we really? We do attract others spirit-to-spirit or interact from spirit-to-physical as well. I know this to be true because of my direct experiences.

It sounds to me as if you confronted a menacing part of yourself from the far Orion past. Perhaps you defeated him in that you now accept him as "inside of you (consumed)"? It does seem like posts fwd from there you accept your what could be considered your "menacing" self.

For me once confronted by those denied or unconscious parts of myself. I can then use them at will to "polarize" as you say.

Deep polarization is fascinating. My interaction here inspired me to experiment more consciously with this. Yesterday I spent some time in visualization/imagination to shift my polarity deeply into STO (though I've never used those terms) in the morning upon awakening. This is easiest done for me by entering past lives/times or other deeply polarized realms in my imaginings.

For me also, STO causes feelings of peace, love and joy but when even farther polarized there is also a deep Longing that occurs. It takes some intense imaginings in experiences to achieve this powerful state of feeling of Longing. It is an oddly blissful feeling like a deep longing to merge with the other self.

Stepping out in to the world in this form is vulnerable but in a beautiful way. Because there is such a radiance exuding from me I also feel extremely protected by others. It is also shocking at how noticeably different others respond to me including that I am less aware of them and they are more aware of me. They seem to naturally appreciate me and those I notice are helpful and respectful. The women who interact with me are friendly and non-threatened/non-competitive. The men I see, are particularly more appreciative of my presence.

My way of offering love feels easy and very pleasurable. I can feel no resentment but rather pleasure for all I am doing for others. I do feel a universal love radiating from me. If I were to witness any harmful behavior in others, I might suddenly burst into tears and it would feel like a necessary clearing, as part of my service for desiring love and well-being for all.

It's my most natural and best feeling state.

What I have noticed is that it's nearly impossible to play any other roles when that far polarized. It's like a walking blissful state of longing to express more and more love through beauty and non-complicated creative offerings of love, feeling alive in nature, wanting sex, loving music and dancing.

It's certainly not a state I could maintain if I had to "go to work" for most of western-world demands. Even reading/writing on a forum in this way would seem not only pointless (because everything I need to know, I am, my purpose is met) but if attempted may feel overwhelming and would depolarize me.

Alternatively In STS (to stay with the theme, not my usual choice of words) what were previously felt as "gifts freely offered" are now felt as "duties and exchanges".

For me, if STS/STO are pre-ordained polarities for densities through the 6th then for me STO is most natural.