12-08-2009, 11:03 PM
So many times I feel like I understand so many things. Sometimes, I feel I know nothing. I need to talk about a conflict within me, and I need feedback from others for resolve. I need to find peace about this.
Being a past Christian, I accepted many things on faith. Even though often I questioned the teachers and the pastor. I noticed, as I read the Bible, only certain things resonated with me. I noticed since a very young age. I always felt a higher something helping me see in between the lines. My mother and I have conflicted so many times, helping each other try to see what the other saw. My experiences over the past few years has made me feel as if I am a catalyst for her, as well as her me, while we share our thoughts to eachother. Its always done in a loving way, it is a wonderful experience of unconditional love and respect, agreeing to disagree. We love talking about spiritual things every day, as I am getting her up and ready in the morning.
I have deep issues with Jesus, and that one has to accept him as God and as our sacrifice...in order to have salvation. I feel I have walked with Jesus, and the Holy Spirit has lead me in my humble times...and feel they have both showed me many things. She feels they show her differently, but her shwoing is through her Bible. I accept Jesus as a being who brought the gift of a true offering of his flesh body, to show us, it was not this body that mattered. He showed us how to walk in the 'Way' in the way, carry our own cross, know love can cure past karmas, by turning the other cheek, you raise your vibration, by slapping the one back that smites you, you only lower your vibration.
I know all paths are valid....I know all still lead to the same ONE. But I fear, that since her experiences came to her through so many things I also believed, I wonder why she was shown so many things that went against her beliefs in her visions. I asked the angels of the Earth to use me to show someone the unconditional love and that we all are worthy, for I had just discovered this, and wanted to shout it from the mountain tops.
I feel that I could of came here, for my mother, to help her to raise her vibration. Too many synch come to her that have more to do about my beliefs then her own. She still dreams of going below the Sphinx, and even though the things she still see's, she cant accept that she is being shown things to help her see something.
Tonight she told me again, that I must believe Jesus was God who had to come in the flesh and shed blood for our sins. She got alittle upset with me, and told me she thought I could be walking a path of darkness. So I am somewhat distraught, as close as we are, a belief makes us feel so distant sometimes. For some reason, I feel I have incarnated with her many times.
Take the post for what you will, mabey I just needed to unload. Thanks for listening...I just dont understand, after all the things she has seen, why she feels that this world is about self salvation. She lives for others, but is so caught up in the idea that she is saved and going to heaven because she simply 'believes'. I know we are all going to be ok what ever path we choose, and what one chooses is likely what one does need. But I feel I have a purpose her, that is for her.
Feel free to add other stories here...that people can share their own times of ....not knowing.
Blessing to all
Lynette
Being a past Christian, I accepted many things on faith. Even though often I questioned the teachers and the pastor. I noticed, as I read the Bible, only certain things resonated with me. I noticed since a very young age. I always felt a higher something helping me see in between the lines. My mother and I have conflicted so many times, helping each other try to see what the other saw. My experiences over the past few years has made me feel as if I am a catalyst for her, as well as her me, while we share our thoughts to eachother. Its always done in a loving way, it is a wonderful experience of unconditional love and respect, agreeing to disagree. We love talking about spiritual things every day, as I am getting her up and ready in the morning.
I have deep issues with Jesus, and that one has to accept him as God and as our sacrifice...in order to have salvation. I feel I have walked with Jesus, and the Holy Spirit has lead me in my humble times...and feel they have both showed me many things. She feels they show her differently, but her shwoing is through her Bible. I accept Jesus as a being who brought the gift of a true offering of his flesh body, to show us, it was not this body that mattered. He showed us how to walk in the 'Way' in the way, carry our own cross, know love can cure past karmas, by turning the other cheek, you raise your vibration, by slapping the one back that smites you, you only lower your vibration.
I know all paths are valid....I know all still lead to the same ONE. But I fear, that since her experiences came to her through so many things I also believed, I wonder why she was shown so many things that went against her beliefs in her visions. I asked the angels of the Earth to use me to show someone the unconditional love and that we all are worthy, for I had just discovered this, and wanted to shout it from the mountain tops.
I feel that I could of came here, for my mother, to help her to raise her vibration. Too many synch come to her that have more to do about my beliefs then her own. She still dreams of going below the Sphinx, and even though the things she still see's, she cant accept that she is being shown things to help her see something.
Tonight she told me again, that I must believe Jesus was God who had to come in the flesh and shed blood for our sins. She got alittle upset with me, and told me she thought I could be walking a path of darkness. So I am somewhat distraught, as close as we are, a belief makes us feel so distant sometimes. For some reason, I feel I have incarnated with her many times.
Take the post for what you will, mabey I just needed to unload. Thanks for listening...I just dont understand, after all the things she has seen, why she feels that this world is about self salvation. She lives for others, but is so caught up in the idea that she is saved and going to heaven because she simply 'believes'. I know we are all going to be ok what ever path we choose, and what one chooses is likely what one does need. But I feel I have a purpose her, that is for her.
Feel free to add other stories here...that people can share their own times of ....not knowing.
Blessing to all
Lynette