Which AM am I?

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Azrael, it is indeed good to remember that one is not the emotions and feelings felt, in fact nothing of which arises to our consciousness and 'assaults the senses' is us. There is no self behind the things which we experience, only cosmic awareness.

Ok, I have some problems with this statement, and for the sake of my own understanding of this statement, would like to discuss it, or more have it explained. If I, unintentionally would derail this thread, I appologize, and would like to be reminded of that.

I've heard this argument before, and have real difficulties to understand it. My own course of resonance is following:

You are every thing, every being, every emotion, every event, every situation. (Ra, 1:6)

The dissolution into nothingness is the dissolution into unity, for there is no nothingness. (Ra, 6:7)

The proper role of the entity is in this density to experience all things desired, to then analyze, understand, and accept these experiences, distilling from them the love/light within them. Nothing shall be overcome. That which is not needed falls away. (Ra, 18:5)

All that assaults your senses is catalyst. (Ra, 93:11)

The catalyst, and all catalyst, is designed to offer experience. This experience in your density may be loved and accepted or it may be controlled. These are the two paths. (Ra, 46:14)

The reason it is unwise to overcome is that overcoming is an unbalanced action creating difficulties in balancing in the time/space continuum. Overcoming, thus, creates the further environment for holding on to that which apparently has been overcome. (Ra, 18:5)

I am not posting these quotes to prove anyone wrong here, and myself right, but to illuminate what I personally think, and I can't say it better myself.

Can anyone explain to me, the chain of thought where it goes something in the line: "You are not this or that feeling, or this or that thought"? Which to me sounds like catalyst being rejected, instead of merged with, accepted and loved?

This is another one of those concepts that is paradoxical, in that both sides hold truth.

On one hand yes, everything which our consciousness experiences is us given that anything we perceive in our external reality is a reflection of ourselves internally; every catalyst we experience has significance, despite there being no initially obvious connection between what surrounds you and one's body/mind, and it is important to note that it is the spirit which is one of the primary benefactors in programming life experience. It is the soul which ultimately ushers one into this or that experience based on how we vibrate at any given moment, mental distortions accumulated and held, choices made, etc. All catalyst present in this illusion around the individual stems from the Creator, and particular catalyst is chosen for you because it in some way ties in with some aspect of yourself, the reasons being abundant and always within the scope of acting as a lesson to learn.

On the other hand, all that surrounds us is NOT us, in that this world is first and foremost, an illusion. The soul is playing a 'metaphysical video game', so to speak. The objects we perceive, the emotions we feel, the thoughts we think, the bodies we inhabit, the areas we reside in, all of this is a highly interactive holographic construct. I say there is no self behind anything we experience, because the body is not the self, nor is the mind, and the spirit itself is also not the "self". One takes the "self" to refer to our mind/body/spirit complex. Remember that this is only an intricate operating system for our temporary vehicle to navigate this illusion. The visage you see in the mirror, this is not you. It is an avatar of your true self, your ultimate true self being the all-pervading fountainhead of consciousness which has given rise to and continues to sustain all that exists in the first place. You are only one small individuated aspect of its infinite awareness. Every action, interaction, cognitive formation, all things are a part of the grand machinations of the Creator.

Within the boundaries of normal 3rd Density perception, yes, we have a self, but everything we experience has nothing to do with our self (e.g. we aren't the food we eat, the clothes we wear, the music we listen to, etc.).

3rd Density with awareness of the Law of One will see that we have a self, and everything we experience is somehow linked to that self in that all we perceive are reflections of the deepest core of our selves.

Transcending 3rd Density perception in conjunction with deeper contemplation upon the Law of One, the self and what we believe to be reality is but a mere a hologram which our true selves as miniaturized Creators have made for us to wade through. In our density time acts to separate events and we move through space in order to undergo experience. Know also that "space" and "time" are mere constructs of the Monad as well. Cosmic awareness cannot simply be compartmentalized into visual perception and mental cognition. Cosmic awareness, in its infinite capabilities, may facilitate any experience. In this density, we are Creator aware only of our temporary physical vehicles, our mind, and "the world around us" with the soul manifesting itself symbolically and synchronistically, subjecting ourselves to any catalyst we see fit to allow ourselves the opportunity to make progress so that we may experience density graduation along the path to reintegration into the Godhead.

You are "Ankh", but "you" are not Ankh.

Ponder this carefully, my friend.