03-07-2012, 01:45 AM
thank you Azrael for you your thoughtful and wise words.
I once had a neighbor that I chit-chatted with often and spent lots of time sharing about many things. One day I sadly realize nothing came of anything that was spoken. Nothing was different afterwords, everything stayed the same, even though there was always acknowledgement and participation as if we were somehow "helping each other". I also realized that I felt worse after then before the conversation and knew that nothing I said helped the neighbor or REALLY touched the neighbor in any way, nor for me. I stopped chatting with the neighbor and used the time more beneficially for my self.
Zaxon has a great role with the creator, yes. As does everyone who allows themselves to follow it.
While I sat and wept as I am feeling myself through his spirit and his through mine, he feels nothing and responds so further confirming what I felt. He already knows this and told me in advance, clearly. He has even given warnings and nearly threats about it.
I don't wish to feel other peoples feelings at this level except if it's requested and would therefore be at least likely or attempted to be of use. I walked foolishly right into it.
I haven't found a way to get that excited about being "we are ONE" right. There is another type of we are ONE and it's Mental Telepathy, not emotional. Arcturians reside there if they are in our future this is where someone like Z might through his desires, go. I am basically a multi-dimensional misfit and not accepted in any of the spirit realms. I don't fit in that well on earth either, though I can at least play along well in groups that are not heavily influenced by the spirits that oppose me.
As I pull away I apply this for myself because it serves me best (I'm STS and STO and think pushing others into polarity is cruel as it was done to me first in childhood and then again during my "awakening" experiences. It took time to recover from). I can only serve others when it or if ever it serves me. I must feel of value or of use to the universe somehow for my personal continued motivation, unfortunately my value is quite limited as I'm not supported by opposing spirit groups and even despised by others in empathic service.
I once had a neighbor that I chit-chatted with often and spent lots of time sharing about many things. One day I sadly realize nothing came of anything that was spoken. Nothing was different afterwords, everything stayed the same, even though there was always acknowledgement and participation as if we were somehow "helping each other". I also realized that I felt worse after then before the conversation and knew that nothing I said helped the neighbor or REALLY touched the neighbor in any way, nor for me. I stopped chatting with the neighbor and used the time more beneficially for my self.
Zaxon has a great role with the creator, yes. As does everyone who allows themselves to follow it.
While I sat and wept as I am feeling myself through his spirit and his through mine, he feels nothing and responds so further confirming what I felt. He already knows this and told me in advance, clearly. He has even given warnings and nearly threats about it.
I don't wish to feel other peoples feelings at this level except if it's requested and would therefore be at least likely or attempted to be of use. I walked foolishly right into it.
I haven't found a way to get that excited about being "we are ONE" right. There is another type of we are ONE and it's Mental Telepathy, not emotional. Arcturians reside there if they are in our future this is where someone like Z might through his desires, go. I am basically a multi-dimensional misfit and not accepted in any of the spirit realms. I don't fit in that well on earth either, though I can at least play along well in groups that are not heavily influenced by the spirits that oppose me.
As I pull away I apply this for myself because it serves me best (I'm STS and STO and think pushing others into polarity is cruel as it was done to me first in childhood and then again during my "awakening" experiences. It took time to recover from). I can only serve others when it or if ever it serves me. I must feel of value or of use to the universe somehow for my personal continued motivation, unfortunately my value is quite limited as I'm not supported by opposing spirit groups and even despised by others in empathic service.