03-06-2012, 10:23 PM
This is why we are here, no? To become complete, Unified beings.
I suppose for myself, I see no moment of merger beyond this one. I see all as already merged, and already believe in the complete perfection of the Creator. Rather, what I have instead sought to do is to alleviate the Creator of the Human conception of perfection.
By all means, there is no err, or shortfall from your choice of your use of energies, that's the beauty of it. Simply offering from my own perspective I have ceased to view "Self" and "Others" as being differentiated, and I suppose I have released my desire to control for the sake of perfection. For myself, I see that a lack of understanding comes from a lack of exploration, and a lack of indulgence or curiosity in that which one seeks to understand.
I suppose I have since stopped desire to "affect" anyone, or anything, and instead have begun to view all interactions with others as being the same as the internal portions of myself interacting with eachother. When I perceive "others", I do not see "others", I see here a representation of my current work with a chakra, or with a state of personality I fear or have not experienced, or I see other portions of my Self reaching a vaster area of work than I do alone with one body. Now that I think of it, I have ceased to have any conception of my Self without Other Selves, for all others are part of what define me, for they are the embodiment of all that I choose not to embody. All Other Selves, to me, are the great Mystery to be explored, for they are my Self, and if I am to understand my Self in my entirety, I must also come to understand my Self as a Unified Multiplicity and this means exploring all that which is a reflection of the Whole Self.
I have very much felt what you said here: I spent many introspective years studying myself, in every nuance and half felt impulse. I know every dark corner of my soul, both its strengths and weaknesses, and have accepted them fully. If I show impatience when you apply pop psychology and categorical assumptions about human nature to glimpses of my unobserved life, it is because I have spent every waking moment of every day of my existence carefully dissecting myself to determined the root of my motivations, desires, and impulses. Having had the advantage of a lifelong front row view of my life, I find little utility in the vague impressions gleaned by others.
Can I share something with you? I was very much in this state of mind myself, I thought I had complete Self mastery, that I knew myself as well as I could be known to myself. Then, I started to realize the Self that I had thought I was, the Self that I had been identifying as THE Self, is actually much, much vaster than I imagined. I started to see others as my Self, not in the sense of being an omnipotent being, but as being alternative expressions of the same basic reality that I Am. I have started to see that the self is no personality, no identity, no motive, the Self is just the canvas, just the raw state which modulates to create experience. I cannot attach any sense of identity to my Self, for the Self is the field of expression of identity. I cannot say, or feel, "my self" and "someone else", for to me when I speak with Others, I am speaking to myself, when I heal others, I am healing myself, when I empower others, I am empowering myself. There is no differentiation, for we are One.
Bottom line, the way I see it, if I am going to be an Infinite Creator that is balanced, I have to be able to transcend PREFERENCE, for only then will I be capable of appropriately handling the energies of all facets. I believe this is why I am actually in this life, and incarnation, because I have always been solitary, always been orientated towards power, and for the first time, I feel, in my long existence, I finally understand the Love, the compassion and coming together that comes with the loving of the Whole Self, in all its facets.
I suppose for myself, I see no moment of merger beyond this one. I see all as already merged, and already believe in the complete perfection of the Creator. Rather, what I have instead sought to do is to alleviate the Creator of the Human conception of perfection.
By all means, there is no err, or shortfall from your choice of your use of energies, that's the beauty of it. Simply offering from my own perspective I have ceased to view "Self" and "Others" as being differentiated, and I suppose I have released my desire to control for the sake of perfection. For myself, I see that a lack of understanding comes from a lack of exploration, and a lack of indulgence or curiosity in that which one seeks to understand.
I suppose I have since stopped desire to "affect" anyone, or anything, and instead have begun to view all interactions with others as being the same as the internal portions of myself interacting with eachother. When I perceive "others", I do not see "others", I see here a representation of my current work with a chakra, or with a state of personality I fear or have not experienced, or I see other portions of my Self reaching a vaster area of work than I do alone with one body. Now that I think of it, I have ceased to have any conception of my Self without Other Selves, for all others are part of what define me, for they are the embodiment of all that I choose not to embody. All Other Selves, to me, are the great Mystery to be explored, for they are my Self, and if I am to understand my Self in my entirety, I must also come to understand my Self as a Unified Multiplicity and this means exploring all that which is a reflection of the Whole Self.
I have very much felt what you said here: I spent many introspective years studying myself, in every nuance and half felt impulse. I know every dark corner of my soul, both its strengths and weaknesses, and have accepted them fully. If I show impatience when you apply pop psychology and categorical assumptions about human nature to glimpses of my unobserved life, it is because I have spent every waking moment of every day of my existence carefully dissecting myself to determined the root of my motivations, desires, and impulses. Having had the advantage of a lifelong front row view of my life, I find little utility in the vague impressions gleaned by others.
Can I share something with you? I was very much in this state of mind myself, I thought I had complete Self mastery, that I knew myself as well as I could be known to myself. Then, I started to realize the Self that I had thought I was, the Self that I had been identifying as THE Self, is actually much, much vaster than I imagined. I started to see others as my Self, not in the sense of being an omnipotent being, but as being alternative expressions of the same basic reality that I Am. I have started to see that the self is no personality, no identity, no motive, the Self is just the canvas, just the raw state which modulates to create experience. I cannot attach any sense of identity to my Self, for the Self is the field of expression of identity. I cannot say, or feel, "my self" and "someone else", for to me when I speak with Others, I am speaking to myself, when I heal others, I am healing myself, when I empower others, I am empowering myself. There is no differentiation, for we are One.
Bottom line, the way I see it, if I am going to be an Infinite Creator that is balanced, I have to be able to transcend PREFERENCE, for only then will I be capable of appropriately handling the energies of all facets. I believe this is why I am actually in this life, and incarnation, because I have always been solitary, always been orientated towards power, and for the first time, I feel, in my long existence, I finally understand the Love, the compassion and coming together that comes with the loving of the Whole Self, in all its facets.
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