Greetings from the Dark

[Zaxon]

Lulu,

Zaxon is a pseudonym I use and is in no way related to my real name. Also, it is Zaxon, not Zaxton. I never read comic books as a child, so I was not familiar with the similarity.

I have found that I can and sometimes do draw the energy of others into myself. This was particularly problematic when I was younger, especially the high energies of adolescents, which could at times be nearly overwhelming. Before I learned to control this ability crowds were often very difficult for me. The ability to draw in the energy of others seems to be a fairly common negative trait.

I attempt to portray myself as frankly as I can here. Wether others believe that to be the case is of no moment to me. Any are welcome to verify my energies for themselves, if they have that ability.


-Zaxon

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Azrael,

As always, thank you for your comments Azrael. Our previous conversations have been very useful in exploring polarity within myself. Obviously I find my basic true self unchanged, but it has allowed me to gain a more comprehensive understanding of my past, present, and future.

My attitude towards other selves is that I prefer to dedicate my energies to the aspect of creation I have some hope of understanding, perfecting, and unifying with the Creator. In essence, I chose to focus my energies on that aspect of the Creator that is the self, rather than disperse my energies on those aspects of the Creator that are others, and of which I find myself having only a superficial and tenuous ability to affect. Moreover, while my will is tremendous, my capacity for love is quite small, and seems particularized to the self and those that closely reflect self. I will happily merge with all of creation when it more perfectly reflects the Creator.

I look forward to the day when my objectives coincide with exhibiting my true self at all times.

-Zaxon