Greetings from the Dark

[Zaxon]

Zaxon, I've read your story with interest. I have not read the entire thread. What I don't understand, and I don't believe it was adressed, is why you believe you're STS?

What is STS in your own words?

Greetings Ali Quadir,

I believe this was addressed, though indirectly, in early posts. However, I realize this thread has become quite long, so I will clarify and reiterate. As I said previously, even before awakening I had been strongly drawn to philosophical egoism, as well as stoicism and the concepts of Darwinian evolution as applied to social and cultural contexts. Therefore, even before awakening I had a fairly robust and nuanced understanding of the world from the perspective of the STS archetype.

On a more fundamental level, I was initially drawn to these ideas and philosophies because I have a highly rational nature and low emotional affect. Altruistic compulsion has never been an aspect of my being, as my perspective has always been, "How does this benefit me?" In many situations I respond to social and cultural stimuli like any other person, seeing as most social relationships are in some way mutually beneficial. I am even actively involved in a few charities and non-profits that promote ideas I value in a way that is personally and professionally advantageous. However, the real difference manifests itself where altruism is concerned, and my motivating impulses. Where and STO will be motivated to act by compassion, I am motivated to act by reason, going through the initial step of, "Is this beneficial?" I will make no pretense of benevolence, because I am not. There are situations where I no doubt seem ruthless, cold, and aggressive.

-Zaxon