03-05-2012, 01:38 AM
>In fact this has occurred with every polarized STO I have encountered. However, this mirroring is at best a facade, which quickly falls away because the defining characteristic of their natures is fluidity, whereas mine is stability and control. My mate does not mirror me, she is my mirror. The difference is subtle but important. She was as she is before we met, and that self was fundamentally like my own.
Zaxon<
It's interesting you say that above and yet you are determined to help to "polarize" those who are not. Why and what is missing about that exactly can you explain? The reason I ask is because I was "polarized" and would like to know what the motivation was behind it. I am no longer of radiance to this earth existence. I lost my desire for this cumbersome life and to exist in this world as we know it. I find myself frustrated at this waiting for it to change and I was VERY angry for a long time at the "entity" who "worked" with me to ruin my "illusion" which kept me in a place of survival and chasing desires and life here on this earth.
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Well said about the difference "she was as she is before we met". And that your self-worth is enough you would accept no less then someone who is as "you" are as rude as it sounds, I know what you mean.
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However/whoever it is that you gather information from, it's as if I have heard it and know it far too well already, but you write it so well, it does give me comfort. It makes me wonder how many of "you" there are from wherever it is you exactly are from? I have both a disturbing feeling towards you as well as a large appreciation for you. You represent such a similar entity of who worked (saying it nicely) with me for my supposed "awakening". There is a large part of me who feels that I am no different then I was before and that it was the entity himself that was awakened due to my devoting STO. Certainly I have more caution and awareness as to how I exist and operate with others. But truly, it was more life-giving and fun before to have desires, chase them, trust and to be in "illusion".
....so why do you go about trying to "polarize" others again?
Zaxon<
It's interesting you say that above and yet you are determined to help to "polarize" those who are not. Why and what is missing about that exactly can you explain? The reason I ask is because I was "polarized" and would like to know what the motivation was behind it. I am no longer of radiance to this earth existence. I lost my desire for this cumbersome life and to exist in this world as we know it. I find myself frustrated at this waiting for it to change and I was VERY angry for a long time at the "entity" who "worked" with me to ruin my "illusion" which kept me in a place of survival and chasing desires and life here on this earth.
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Well said about the difference "she was as she is before we met". And that your self-worth is enough you would accept no less then someone who is as "you" are as rude as it sounds, I know what you mean.
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However/whoever it is that you gather information from, it's as if I have heard it and know it far too well already, but you write it so well, it does give me comfort. It makes me wonder how many of "you" there are from wherever it is you exactly are from? I have both a disturbing feeling towards you as well as a large appreciation for you. You represent such a similar entity of who worked (saying it nicely) with me for my supposed "awakening". There is a large part of me who feels that I am no different then I was before and that it was the entity himself that was awakened due to my devoting STO. Certainly I have more caution and awareness as to how I exist and operate with others. But truly, it was more life-giving and fun before to have desires, chase them, trust and to be in "illusion".
....so why do you go about trying to "polarize" others again?