The Quest for a Soulmate

[W1981]

Thanks for the thread plenum. I been at it (searching for a mate/soulmate) for about 9 years now. I accept my part of blame, that is, during the previous 8 years I had been more or less in a depression mode that was just getting from bad to worse. i just read your thread about blockages and can identify more than I like to aknowledge on that list that had plagued me for all these years. in the last year i have been removing them bit by bit and now just find myself blocked in just a couple that have to do with social issues and being part of a group. I been trying to fix these for a while and the work is being done but my social skills are indeed limited. I blame me for that but again I forgive myself and I'm attending to it.

On the other hand I find myself in situations were there are very few people I can talk with, let alone connect. I am trying to be accepting of all of them and normally analyse their behaviour towards me and if I find that I can't put up with certain people I simply avoid interaction, however, this is rare.

What I am surprised about is the fact that my surroundings almost constantly lack open minded people who are willing to just talk intellectually or w/e, wether it be about politics, science, spirituality or anything that comes to mind. This, I cannot explain!

In the quest for a soulmate/mate then, since one would have to at least be able to sustain an intellectual conversation, i find myself losing the battle simply because I don't come accross people who can start and maintain decent conversations. I cannot figure out if this is my limitation or others', but hey, I guess I'll learn.