What grinds your gears and how do you deal with it?

[Sagittarius]

It grinds my gears that people can't just wake up already. It's gotten to the point where I understand there actions and can relate it to myself but the difference is I have learnt from my actions and they never do. I accept it and have made peace with it but it still doesn't change. I feel like this is my biggest lesson. I'am sick of feeling one with the creator one day then feeling like all I want to do is get the f*** out of this place the next.

I'am sick of working my ass of everyday to get money just to live. I'am sick of rules and authority and ignorance. I'am sick of the negative side of myself and everytime I try to embrace it I feel sick to the stomach. I'am sick of not being able to tell anyone about anything because they don't understand. I'am a shining goddam example of a good loving person and all I get in return is suffering. I don't look at catalysts as exciting anymore as I know the feeling will eventually fade.

I know I'am in a negative mood/state as I'am typing this and I know I will feel differently for period as surely as I know I will take it away from myself. I'am sick of the veil. The only thing keeping me sane right now is knowing time is almost up and either things will change or I will gtfo of here one way or another.