02-24-2012, 09:56 PM
(02-24-2012, 09:31 PM)TheFifty9Sound Wrote: However, the only thing that gets my blood boiling, the only thing that puts me in a foul mood and will cause me to snap unnecessarily at people, is losing on FIFA (an xBox soccer game).
It got me thinking, how do I approach this? Do I avoid the game altogether, knowing it sends me on a tilt? Would that be the spiritually evolved and awakened thing to do? Or do I continue to play it, and (as I pride myself at being extremely good at this game) push myself harder and harder, till I'm either a) unbeatable or b) reached a stage where it doesn't send me into a rage?
Essentially, is it wiser to know your short comings and accept them with good humor, or work through and resolve them?
I think, according to the Ra material, it would not be "spiritually evolved and awakened" to simply avoid the emotional situation simply for balance's sake. Some spiritual teachings and New Age personalities might say that putting yourself in that mindset is creating "negative vibrations" thus attracting "negative situations," but whatever emotion you don't encounter through the game, your Higher Self will probably throw you into another situation which arouses the same emotion.
I think seeking to understand why you get upset may help you to balance the emotion. Anger from losing in a video game seems to derive from the orange ray, competitive domination over others. The emotion is probably coupled with extreme satisfaction from beating people I'm guessing, which is an emotion which probably demands equal attention in balancing. Going into the situation with the intent of understanding the emotional charge it brings you, whether winning or losing, and as you're experiencing that emotion, delving into it seeking understanding of why you're feeling it (and possibly imagining feeling other ways in the same situation) may help bring some balance.
That's all my take, anyways.
What grinds my gears is probably more silly than your's and I've been thinking about posting a thread to ask for some help in understanding this catalyst. Like you, I am very rarely emotionally moved, at least as far as anger/frustration goes.
However, human bodily functions always seem to throw me into some sort of rage. Even things that are uncontrollable. I really first noticed it when I was young, when my brother would have sneezing fits due to allergies...I would get so mad listening to him sneeze I would sometimes yell at him. It's basically any bodily function though, from burping and farting, to blowing one's nose, to stomachs growling, to the sound from scratching an itch...it all irks me for some reason and I can't figure out why.
I've tried balancing meditation...imagining being surrounded by all these things and becoming furious over it, trying to explore the emotion...I just can't find the root of it and it just won't seem to balance.
I'm lost
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