Why are you scared?

[godwide_void]

I try to excogitate on my fears to a huge degree: is there any reason to be fearful? What caused this fear in the first place? How much is this fear holding me back? Is the fear a worry that I'm creating in my mind, or is it rational fear that relates to something in the present moment? Insight into any of them leads to understanding that there is no reason to fear, and initially I dismissed (rather, repressed) my fears by affirming "All will be will, there is only the Creator), though I find that I still get bombarded with anxiety, worries, doubt, self-worth issues, etc. Now I do not feel aversion to these negative fears, and rather attempt to remain unattached to the emotion of fear while I deconstruct the fearful mental formations until I either

- Resolve the issue, thereby either eliminating the fear or replacing it with its positive counterpart
- Realize that the fear is unfounded, holds no true basis to exist nor to be dwelled upon in the first place
- Examine that the present moment is peaceful, so whatever fear that arose is based on past mistakes/events/ego issue (neither of which are a part of the self) and it falls away on its own

It used to bother me/sadden me that I strive with every fiber of my being to purify myself and cultivate love and compassion for all things and yet I was still prone to irrational fear and anxieities. I figured out it's called "being human", something I'd forgotten when I discovered this material. Applying the material to confronting these issues has helped tremendously though.