STO/STS Meditation

[Brittany]

The journey that has gotten me to the point of having this discussion is a whole other post in itself. I have been very busy during my hiatus from the forum. However, I will say in brief that I have come to accept that my natural state is one of flux, constantly cycling between the polarities. I feel I have both polarities activated within me, working in a symbiotic fashion instead of one retaining dominance over the other.

So on to the topic at hand...I've always had difficulty meditating, due to a bad case of ADHD or whatever they are calling it these days. Lately, however, I have come to the point that my body, mind and spirit all crave that state of communion, so I have been experimenting with different meditation techniques, trying to find something that doesn't succeed in making me miserable.

My most recent experiment is meditating in both polarities within a singular meditation, switching my techniques at the drop of a hat. The results have been absolutely mind-blowing.

I usually use music to aid me in achieving the appropriate state of mind. There are certain songs that instantly trigger one state of mind or the other within me, so switching my mindset is as easy as hitting a button on my MP3 player.

Today I started in what I perceive to be an STS form of meditation, focusing on the solar plexus and rotating the power within myself, then shooting it out in a concentrated beam through my crown chakra (very similar to what Zaxon describes in his thread). This results in a feeling of immense, compacted power within my solar plexus, stretching up to my third eye. Reality contracts and everything becomes very honed and focused, like the edge of a knife. I also usually feel an unusual sensation at my temples, almost as if invisible fingers are pressing against the sides of my head.

Then I switched over to positive meditation, letting my heart open up and all the energy that had been stored up within it as it was tightly shut to surge through my system. This resulted in shudders of pleasure crashing through my body, and all the focused power exploded outward as light, more potent than I have ever felt it before. I felt tingles of electricity go through my whole body, lightning shooting up and down my spine. My initial response was WOW.

I guess the point I am trying to make here is that I think the polarities have a lot to learn from each other, and each can be utilized by its opposite to create an effect that is absolutely unrivaled. The polarities act as amplifiers upon each other, and it is very possible to create a complete circuit of energy within the body, using the polarities as conductors. (The more complex scientific/electrical jargon involved in this concept is mostly beyond me at this point.)

This pretty much turns my strongest beliefs from the past several years on their ear. It seems unorthodox, but never before have I felt so full, complete, content, satisfied...For the first time in this incarnation I truly like who I am and feel that I have a place in existence.

Thoughts?