Greetings from the Dark

[Amiyou]

yes... for whatever reason, the concept STO / STS always makes me feel uncomfortable
especially if it is used to judge one path being "the correct" one.

Yes, the whole STS, STO thing leaves a bad taste in my mouth too.
It simply doesn't make sense.
To serve me is to serve me, and to serve you is to serve me.
I don't like the word, 'serve'.
I have always had a strong desire to put a glass of water in the hands that do not have one, food in the mouth, clothes, etc. Nothing else is up for discussion in politics/economy, etc, until that is achieved first, from my view.

It is the overwhelming and sometimes painful purpose of this little 'me' to be that way, I cannot change this foundational feeling that seems to be so built into me that the concept of the physical matter of the body being actually, made of pure will, emotion and desire, seems more normal than ever, the desire to see achieved a world where we are all housed, fed, watered, etc, seems somehow to be the very stuff that makes up my body.
But in examining my desire to, be that, see that happen, I also realise that it is a service to myself.
I want to see these things happen because apart from the pain of seeing others suffer, I know that when the moment comes that we are ALL (apart from those who may for whatever reason choose to be without these things) in the basic comforts, I will feel a happiness like nothing ever felt before (from my current perspective), a feeling beyond happiness, a global contentment, something that cannot really be described well enough.
All of us would feel something so great in waking up each and every day knowing that the foundation is good and solid, and we can really begin creating together.
Anyway, I think I have said what I wanted to already.