Thank you for interesting reading this far, my brother. And welcome to this forum.
When reaching the heart area, in for instance sexual energy transfer, there is also satisfaction that is out of this world, while if the energy transfer does not reach the green ray, but stays below, it feels unsatisfactory. My understanding then is that if polarizing STS, you can't afford feelings like that. You have to learn how to shut all this peace, joy and well being off. You have to learn how to control *all* your feelings and thoughts, and use them in total devotion towards service to self polarization; take conscious control of them and your thoughts. I remember for instance that you were writing about your girlfriend, and that the love between you is conditional and must be earned every day. If polarizing STS, I think that there is a question here - how this love is of benefit for you, and if not, to use it for your benefit, if possible, otherwise abandon it. There is no love, even conditional, that is of benefit for an STS entity? The only thing of importance is the realization of the self as the Creator. Right?
I understand you. I have the same difficulties when polarizing STS. I have been raised in STS environment, and since that is what I learned as a child, I tried to do that during early years. But as you, I found the other polarity to be incongruent with myself. So when my heart closes, I find it very difficult to function. I feel weak and passive.
They could also be playing power games with you, like: "Dude, do you really think that you can tell us what to do, huh?"
STS polarization is as difficult as STO polarization, according to the Ra material. See how all STO Wanderers and other entities suffer and stuff? Being negatively greeted and everything else that happens to them? You don't. Negative entities have no reason to greet you other than sharing their philosophy, and if you don't feel bad seeing other's sorrows and suffer - what is it then that is so difficult? What makes polarization towards STS being as hard as polarization towards STO? I am not sure, dude, but I think that if you want to graduate in STS, you have to either open the gateway to intelligent infinity, or approach almost totality in your polarization, which means, imo - no love, dude. No feelings. No activation of the green center, for peace, or joy or whatever. You must have total devotion towards service to self, only. This is my understanding of course. Would enjoy to continue reading yours. =)
(02-17-2012, 11:32 AM)Zaxon Wrote: Where the STS orientation fills me with hunger, the STO orientation fills me with a sense of peace, joy, and well being.
When reaching the heart area, in for instance sexual energy transfer, there is also satisfaction that is out of this world, while if the energy transfer does not reach the green ray, but stays below, it feels unsatisfactory. My understanding then is that if polarizing STS, you can't afford feelings like that. You have to learn how to shut all this peace, joy and well being off. You have to learn how to control *all* your feelings and thoughts, and use them in total devotion towards service to self polarization; take conscious control of them and your thoughts. I remember for instance that you were writing about your girlfriend, and that the love between you is conditional and must be earned every day. If polarizing STS, I think that there is a question here - how this love is of benefit for you, and if not, to use it for your benefit, if possible, otherwise abandon it. There is no love, even conditional, that is of benefit for an STS entity? The only thing of importance is the realization of the self as the Creator. Right?
Zaxon Wrote:I find it very difficult to function in daily life while in this state, as the sense of compassion can sometimes be overwhelming and my physical vehicle feels weak and passive.
I understand you. I have the same difficulties when polarizing STS. I have been raised in STS environment, and since that is what I learned as a child, I tried to do that during early years. But as you, I found the other polarity to be incongruent with myself. So when my heart closes, I find it very difficult to function. I feel weak and passive.
Zacon Wrote:For some time I have been toying with the idea of attracting an Orion entity to my dreams. They will not approach me when I am in a highly polarized STS state,
They could also be playing power games with you, like: "Dude, do you really think that you can tell us what to do, huh?"
Zaxon Wrote:For what it is worth I thought I would share this experience, and ask if anyone else has found that they are able to consciously change their polarity, without experiencing depolarization?
STS polarization is as difficult as STO polarization, according to the Ra material. See how all STO Wanderers and other entities suffer and stuff? Being negatively greeted and everything else that happens to them? You don't. Negative entities have no reason to greet you other than sharing their philosophy, and if you don't feel bad seeing other's sorrows and suffer - what is it then that is so difficult? What makes polarization towards STS being as hard as polarization towards STO? I am not sure, dude, but I think that if you want to graduate in STS, you have to either open the gateway to intelligent infinity, or approach almost totality in your polarization, which means, imo - no love, dude. No feelings. No activation of the green center, for peace, or joy or whatever. You must have total devotion towards service to self, only. This is my understanding of course. Would enjoy to continue reading yours. =)
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