02-17-2012, 10:15 AM
(This post was last modified: 02-17-2012, 10:15 AM by godwide_void.)
Oh, do I have a few examples... There happens to be a good reason why I refrain from ingesting psilocybin mushrooms anymore.
- During a trip a few months ago, a 'friend' and I ingested a pretty hefty amount each (along with Syrian Rue, seeds which are used for their MAOI properties but also known for facilitating telepathic phenomenon, namely amonst native tribes, though I suspect it also opens one up to outside forces...). Before the effects set in I thought in my head "I allow all entities of Christ Consciousness to inhabit my body" in an amateur attempt at channeling, seeing as my prior experiences involved wonderful instances of divine perception/seeing Godheads everywhere behind closed eyes, though I soon discovered this was a very, very unwise decision which I soon discovered. Midway through the trip I suddenly felt devoid of any positive feelings, and begin apologizing to my friend for no reason. I'd felt I'd done something terribly wrong. I soon felt nothing but disturbing vibes coming from my 'friend', sitting at the computer next to me.
The next 4-5 hours, I truly believed were the last moments of my life. I began to notice an odd change in this guy's demeanor... I saw his face contort into the most sinister smirks ever, and he would react/respond to the thoughts in my mind. Everything he said took on an air of vile sarcasm, such as "Don't worry, things will ALWAYS get better", though when he said "always" I heard voices in my mind screaming "NEVER". I began having disturbing visions, going back through every joyful memory I've ever had in my life and re-experiencing everything with intense sorrow, despair, gloom, what have you. I had many apocalyptic visions, of myself being tortured in ways that would make the Saw movies series seem like mere child's play. My arms moved without my control, and something urged me to begin to punch my forehead repeatedly.
This "friend" did nothing but watch and occasionally smile/sneer. He seemed to be waiting for something, and I saw his arm become EXTREMELY red, bulging, almost demonic. In my mind, amidst these horrendous thoughts and visions a calm voice relayed to me something along the lines of "Both entities present serve the Creator, and there is no difference between either those of the dark and of the light". I fought back these dark thoughts that assaulted my mind, and after 5 hours or so I was able to control my body again, and immediately got the hell out of there.
Now... I'm not entirely certain as to whether I opened myself up to dark, dark forces that wanted to end my life, or this 'friend' of mine was telepathically assaulting me (my initial assumption, I no longer associate with him as I feel nothing but disturbing energies when I go there from him, despite him being a vibrant, radiant person). However, I now have the experience of knowing what it feels like to face, at least what I truly believed, was imminent death in the face. On the train ride home I corresponded with my Higher Self who confirmed that negative forces did indeed try to 'greet' me.
- The subsequent mushrooms experiences I had took a turn for the worse. Midway through one trip my eyes began to flicker/rapidly blink, and I began involuntarily thinking, or beginning to think "I open myself to the dark forces of Orion". I spent a good hour trying to prevent myself from thinking these thoughts, though I was unsuccessful, and soon after I felt intense despair, agony... after the peak ended I had to help my mother fix up the closet in her room, and I'd say there were 5 or so instances where I could have been fatally injured during it (e.g. my head was literally 2 centimeters away from a large rusty nail protruding in the closet).
These experiences disturbed me, as I am usually a calm, peaceful, laidback person and have NEVER before these times had any sort of anxiety, paranoia, or fear during my entheogenic experiences. The disturbing part is, I view these substances and the experience as divine communion, and during the time period these took place (mid-end of last year) I was dilligently doing everything I could to both spread awareness of the Law of One (sharing my LOO-inspired albums at a rapid pace) and to strengthen my connection to the Source. My conclusive assumption is that some entity was not pleased at all with my efforts to spread light and love and wished to end my efforts, seeing these experiences as ample opportunity to do so. Fortunately for me, I ended up developing an allergy to the strains of mushrooms my the guy I knew had (thank you Creator!) so such opportunities to open myself up like that will never arise.
In short, mushrooms left me sensitive and open to outside forces which bombarded me with dark energies and attempted to stop me in my LOO-spreading path.
- During a trip a few months ago, a 'friend' and I ingested a pretty hefty amount each (along with Syrian Rue, seeds which are used for their MAOI properties but also known for facilitating telepathic phenomenon, namely amonst native tribes, though I suspect it also opens one up to outside forces...). Before the effects set in I thought in my head "I allow all entities of Christ Consciousness to inhabit my body" in an amateur attempt at channeling, seeing as my prior experiences involved wonderful instances of divine perception/seeing Godheads everywhere behind closed eyes, though I soon discovered this was a very, very unwise decision which I soon discovered. Midway through the trip I suddenly felt devoid of any positive feelings, and begin apologizing to my friend for no reason. I'd felt I'd done something terribly wrong. I soon felt nothing but disturbing vibes coming from my 'friend', sitting at the computer next to me.
The next 4-5 hours, I truly believed were the last moments of my life. I began to notice an odd change in this guy's demeanor... I saw his face contort into the most sinister smirks ever, and he would react/respond to the thoughts in my mind. Everything he said took on an air of vile sarcasm, such as "Don't worry, things will ALWAYS get better", though when he said "always" I heard voices in my mind screaming "NEVER". I began having disturbing visions, going back through every joyful memory I've ever had in my life and re-experiencing everything with intense sorrow, despair, gloom, what have you. I had many apocalyptic visions, of myself being tortured in ways that would make the Saw movies series seem like mere child's play. My arms moved without my control, and something urged me to begin to punch my forehead repeatedly.
This "friend" did nothing but watch and occasionally smile/sneer. He seemed to be waiting for something, and I saw his arm become EXTREMELY red, bulging, almost demonic. In my mind, amidst these horrendous thoughts and visions a calm voice relayed to me something along the lines of "Both entities present serve the Creator, and there is no difference between either those of the dark and of the light". I fought back these dark thoughts that assaulted my mind, and after 5 hours or so I was able to control my body again, and immediately got the hell out of there.
Now... I'm not entirely certain as to whether I opened myself up to dark, dark forces that wanted to end my life, or this 'friend' of mine was telepathically assaulting me (my initial assumption, I no longer associate with him as I feel nothing but disturbing energies when I go there from him, despite him being a vibrant, radiant person). However, I now have the experience of knowing what it feels like to face, at least what I truly believed, was imminent death in the face. On the train ride home I corresponded with my Higher Self who confirmed that negative forces did indeed try to 'greet' me.
- The subsequent mushrooms experiences I had took a turn for the worse. Midway through one trip my eyes began to flicker/rapidly blink, and I began involuntarily thinking, or beginning to think "I open myself to the dark forces of Orion". I spent a good hour trying to prevent myself from thinking these thoughts, though I was unsuccessful, and soon after I felt intense despair, agony... after the peak ended I had to help my mother fix up the closet in her room, and I'd say there were 5 or so instances where I could have been fatally injured during it (e.g. my head was literally 2 centimeters away from a large rusty nail protruding in the closet).
These experiences disturbed me, as I am usually a calm, peaceful, laidback person and have NEVER before these times had any sort of anxiety, paranoia, or fear during my entheogenic experiences. The disturbing part is, I view these substances and the experience as divine communion, and during the time period these took place (mid-end of last year) I was dilligently doing everything I could to both spread awareness of the Law of One (sharing my LOO-inspired albums at a rapid pace) and to strengthen my connection to the Source. My conclusive assumption is that some entity was not pleased at all with my efforts to spread light and love and wished to end my efforts, seeing these experiences as ample opportunity to do so. Fortunately for me, I ended up developing an allergy to the strains of mushrooms my the guy I knew had (thank you Creator!) so such opportunities to open myself up like that will never arise.
In short, mushrooms left me sensitive and open to outside forces which bombarded me with dark energies and attempted to stop me in my LOO-spreading path.