02-12-2012, 03:24 PM
Depressive disorder can hit anyone. It lurks around me plenty of times. I think that Wanderers have a vague, vague memory of life being LOTS better "somewhere else." That exerts a pull nearly non-stop. Having an identity as (maybe) a Wanderer, and what it means, i.e. sorrowful but here to help, puts things into perspective and encourages carrying on.
I remember sinking so low that I didn't "have the energy" to take the steps to suicide, because I first would want to clean up my home and write a thoughtful note. If a bad guy had put a gun to my head however, I would have said, "What are you waiting for?" That's why I understand the warnings that say if, after taking this anti-depressant, you have thoughts of suicide, seek help. A little more energy might have pushed me that way.
Then there was this one very brief time when I simply was madly driven to reach for some implement and do myself in. It was urgent! I stopped it by asking myself, "What's this all about?" That was enough to make that go away and never return. Whew!
Non-drug treatments that push depression away:
I remember sinking so low that I didn't "have the energy" to take the steps to suicide, because I first would want to clean up my home and write a thoughtful note. If a bad guy had put a gun to my head however, I would have said, "What are you waiting for?" That's why I understand the warnings that say if, after taking this anti-depressant, you have thoughts of suicide, seek help. A little more energy might have pushed me that way.
Then there was this one very brief time when I simply was madly driven to reach for some implement and do myself in. It was urgent! I stopped it by asking myself, "What's this all about?" That was enough to make that go away and never return. Whew!
Non-drug treatments that push depression away:
- Exercise
- Music
- Laughter
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