Difficulties with restriction of personality

[Lorna]

weirdly just before i logged onto bring 4th i was thinking about my gran's brother who died on thursday. he is someone i didn't like, i didn't feel comfortable in his presence, he felt toxic to me, mainly because he had a lot of anger and he seemed, to me, to have quite an artificially constructed personality - he was not expressing the truth of himself - i just couldn't be around him

anyway, families being as they are it's going to be difficult for me to explain to some members of my family why i won't be going to the funeral and that was what was playing on my mind

i didn't feel any ill toward my uncle, quite the opposite, i smile thinking of him being now reunited with people who he had lost and at his joy at being released from the confines of his incarnation

i'm not sure what i'm trying to say other than that in my experience with this particular relationship interaction was best avoided. not because there was anything 'wrong' with his personality, which was clearly right for his circumstances and his path. but it was just not right for me (or my mum who had the same response to him as me) to spend any time with this particular person

i hope this situation has an outcome you can feel content with ayadew