Suicide

[Diana]

I have been there.

I remember contemplating it without emotion as a young child--about 6.

I again as an adult went through an experience very similar to Plenum's. I even had a nurse friend in on it. I spent many nights surfing the internet for the easiest way to die. What got me out of it was the idea of quitting my mission to be here, and what I would think of it when I got to "the other side." I imagined being so disappointed that I didn't stick it out. Part 2 of that scenario is that I got back on track with goals. To live here in 3D, one must have some participation in 3D to tolerate it, unless you are content to be a roving aesthetic who lives off of handouts. I worked hard on developing my way out of the low point.

I like to imagine now that when I leave this place, I will be celebrating that "I did it." I did what I came to do, no matter how hard--which ironically will make the success even sweeter.