01-31-2012, 04:11 PM
(This post was last modified: 01-31-2012, 04:53 PM by AnthroHeart.)
Coming back to that song Do You Call My Name, I can say now it doesn't strike fear in me like it did months back. I can actually enjoy it now. It's one of those that makes me think.
I believe I mentioned before how I was freaking out when I first heard this because of my emotional-hypersensitivity. I had opened up much more spiritually and everything I came across was "truth" to me. I had believed that the universe I created within my heart chakra was a copy of our 3D. That there was a "copy" of everyone in the world, within my own 3D heart. As such, I thought every YouTube video I watched was being streamed from within me. I saw the web as a direct link to the universe within me. So I cherished everyone and every video as truth, kind of giving me a signpost of how my own universe was doing.
Because I believed within me was a copy of our own physical Universe (at a lower Octave), I took Ra's words as truth, and had the fear that I had trapped them within my own universe and that in their they were somehow suffering.
Because of my emotional-hypersensitivity, I thought that spiritual growth required over-stimulation of the senses and becoming hypersensitive. I thought these words were directed at me because of what I had done. I had feared I violated their free will by making demands on how I wanted the universe to function. Because my goals were "maximize experiencing for Creator" and "Maximizing ability for everyone to express themselves" and doing a perfect balance of STO and STS, this mix became more than I could handle.
I couldn't balance the uncertainty that STS brought to the mix within me, and felt myself being pulled into what I thought was negative space. I had thought I manifested these Ra songs because of asking the question. I became overly sensitive to every question I raised, knowing that the answer would hit me hard.
But for now I can enjoy this music without the sensitive side. Knowing now that I had not messed up, but I experienced a partial lifting of the veil which made me react to energies of words. I had much respect for Ra, and still do. No wonder the words hit me hard. Now I don't associate the Ra group with the Ra complex, but back then I did. It's a scary thing in that state to think that you violated free will of another.
I believe I mentioned before how I was freaking out when I first heard this because of my emotional-hypersensitivity. I had opened up much more spiritually and everything I came across was "truth" to me. I had believed that the universe I created within my heart chakra was a copy of our 3D. That there was a "copy" of everyone in the world, within my own 3D heart. As such, I thought every YouTube video I watched was being streamed from within me. I saw the web as a direct link to the universe within me. So I cherished everyone and every video as truth, kind of giving me a signpost of how my own universe was doing.
Because I believed within me was a copy of our own physical Universe (at a lower Octave), I took Ra's words as truth, and had the fear that I had trapped them within my own universe and that in their they were somehow suffering.
Because of my emotional-hypersensitivity, I thought that spiritual growth required over-stimulation of the senses and becoming hypersensitive. I thought these words were directed at me because of what I had done. I had feared I violated their free will by making demands on how I wanted the universe to function. Because my goals were "maximize experiencing for Creator" and "Maximizing ability for everyone to express themselves" and doing a perfect balance of STO and STS, this mix became more than I could handle.
I couldn't balance the uncertainty that STS brought to the mix within me, and felt myself being pulled into what I thought was negative space. I had thought I manifested these Ra songs because of asking the question. I became overly sensitive to every question I raised, knowing that the answer would hit me hard.
But for now I can enjoy this music without the sensitive side. Knowing now that I had not messed up, but I experienced a partial lifting of the veil which made me react to energies of words. I had much respect for Ra, and still do. No wonder the words hit me hard. Now I don't associate the Ra group with the Ra complex, but back then I did. It's a scary thing in that state to think that you violated free will of another.