Wanderer Yellow Ray Activation

[Sacred Fool]

I have a tremendous problem with feeling gratitude for those who have been deliberately hurtful, or so carelessly indifferent, that they caused a lot of hurt to me and to others. Beyond saying, "thank you for showing me what I DON'T want in my life," I don't know how to have joyous thanksgiving in these situations.

LOL. Yeah, I know that can sound ridiculously masochistic, not to mention incongruent with one's sense of righteousness (speaking here from my own experience). And it's probably not productive to say, "Hey thanks for being a @#*^&!!"

I might suggest that the gratitude can come in when one views the experiences as energy exchanges (within your own field of being) that inform you what it's like to treat an entity in such a way; and then you take the next step of internally balancing that by opening up your personalized being to the caliber of Divine Love which can balance that. It's in experiencing the latter that the gratitude feels eminently appropriate. As one developes this skill, one can invoke the gratitude earlier on and this catalyzes the process.

So, how do you open your being up to the influx of the Divine Love? Alas, I cannot answer that for you--it's up to you to discover that within yourself. (Cool, huh?) Okay, it's a pain in the neck, but the payoff is superlative and, indeed, the essence of life itself, some would say.

In my own case, I've found putting myself in the presence of high-powered shakti emitting guru-types useful, as well as taking workshops where I was "zapped" with subtle energies. After some years of this I came to find that I was heir to some of this stuff myself and could turn it on at will.

On the other hand, opening yourself to the high caliber Divine Love is not as easy as it sounds because of all the vestigial internal negative, self-defeating beliefs we all carry. All kinds of experiences you've had of mis-using love & power (or being abused by them) may have left an unhealthy residue. By carefully picking through your feeling responses to the painful experiences you're having you can find some of this residue and offer it up to your spiritual handlers, as I like to call them, to remove them. If this method doesn't feel accessible, find another one.

You might find it useful to spend time remembering the experience of Divine Love felt in between lifetimes or at other times.

I don't know how to do that. I don't have any experience of consciously remembering anything outside of this life, and even then, only going back to a few memories starting around age three.

Well, try not to take it too literally, then. Search inside for hints, for the feelings. Again, getting "zapped" by folks who are facile with this can be useful.

Getting back to the yellow ray energy center topic (I'm feeling guilty for digressing), it can be hard to isolate one area from another sometimes. As hard as the Ra Material can be to read owing to the way the topics pick up here and drop off there, that's actually a lot like the way things happen in real life. It can be dizzying to track a blip here, then a charge there. Getting your energy sytem organized is a big challenge!

Hope this is helpful.
~p~