Hi

[Cyan]

Cyan,

You understand that you are in a battle, and you do not know how to bring it to an end. It is taking a toll on your sanity.

What is happening to you is known to the Ancients as the 'God Complex'. As you come to realize your divinity you suffer the memory of creation.

I will not attempt to treat you, but I will point you to a place where you may be able to find balance.

Study and try to understand the chaos of Tiamat and try to realize that the initial experience of God is not one of peace and intelligence. It was a storm of oppositions resulting in chaos.

Seek the Goddess and you shall find relief.

This answer provided much understanding and balance after careful consideration, thank you.

I have now grounded significantly more to this reality. And I understand the rules of this reality significantly better now.

Using the "memory of creation" I can manifest a world which I find to my liking. I like things such as love, sexuality, kindness to all, common developement, art, humor.

I also much like the human spirit as a whole. Sometimes I forget that but darn it is such a thrill to be human.

Now that I have touched the memory of creation I can get back to being what I wish to be, a aspect of creation.

I will remember the hard lessons I have learned to be here and seek to make those lessons easier for others to accept. So that we might all bear witness to suffering only as long as we wish to bear witness to suffering. My quota of bearing witness was full, as i thought that my cup was so small. But my cup floweth over and I'm refershed

Praise the Ego-Self for providing such a nice show =)