Something on My Mind

[Monica]

I thank you all for your consideration and insight into this. Upon review, it is not the feeling of running away that attracts me, but rather the desire to just start up my life.

Thanks for the clarification! That is an entirely normal feeling, at your age.

I'm 19, and this is my first semester in college, so I don't graduate until after the age shift is said to occur, though it won't necessarily happen in 2012.

I can see why what something that's a normal part of growing up (the urge to get out on your own) can be greatly intensified when you have the knowledge of the Shift!

The school system in America, from kindergarten to Post Doctoral work, is built around the idea that we live the entirety of our lives doing what someone else tells us to do. Do the homework assignment. Explain how you came to this conclusion. Prove to us that you didn't slack off and actually learned what you were supposed to. I love learning, I love information, I love thinking about theoretical concepts. I hate having to show the world that I know that momentum is conserved in a collision, or that Hamlet is a tragedy that explores the depression one goes through when their incestuous uncle kills their father and marries their mother. Heck, even having to explain to a stranger that I know how to solve a Rubik's cube, and that's the reason why I brought one with me to college, irks me.

Gosh, you remind me a lot of my 21-yo son!! He too became disillusioned with the college system. He thought it would be a rich environment encouraging independent thought, but it turned out to be pretty much an extension of the normal school system...being told what to learn and having to regurgitate on demand. He too is a brilliant genius of a kid who learns much better when he's self-motivated, instead of being told what to learn. I see a lot of parallels.

I want to have the opportunity to devote all my time in a day, every day, to developing myself into the best me I can be, because it is that me that I know the world needs. I want to marry a loving, caring, understanding like-minded woman, who I can make a family with, and raise my children with, with the belief from before birth that you are a mind/body/spirit complex, and that manipulation of the illusion of reality is as easy as breathing.

Apparently a lot of dual-activated souls have a clear understanding of the higher frequencies and what it would be like to live in such a reality, but may feel frustrated that they aren't yet in a position to apply what they know. And yet, they did incarnate for some reason...perhaps to learn patience, understanding, and compassion, in dealing with others. These too are valuable lessons, which may aid in your quest to "develop yourself to be the best you can be."

"Be the change you want to see in the world." --Mahatma Gandhi

In a way I see the future every single day, and I just want fast forward to the day when that future is today. It pains me to live every day with this presently unachievable foresight.

Ra stated that we all learn as well as teach...I know whenever I've felt impatient in my life, there was usually something I still needed to learn from my current situation. Eventually, with some patience and acceptance, I usually was able to move out of the frustrating situation. Sometimes the lesson is to apply the knowledge we have in our minds...You mentioned manipulating reality...Perhaps the task here is to leant to harmonize with your current reality and transform it into what you are envisioning...see it blossom and transfrom, rather than denying it in favor of something else.

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Thank you fairyfarmgirl, I will be sure to read up on intentional communities, they sound like what I've been looking for.

There is one forming right now...you can learn about it at:

http://pesn.com/

This particular community is based on sustainable living and mutual respect, not on any particular spiritual path. I'm not sure where on the website it tells about the community, but if you are interested, I can connect you with the people there. It's a cutting-edge free energy website so it might be a good resource for you anyway, because of your interest in getting beyond the strictures of the conventional scientific paradigm.

I know there are lots of other communities out there, but I happened to hear about this one recently, so I thought I'd mention it. I know I've heard of one in Austin TX as well...not sure about the details on that but I could find it if you're interested.

Another major problem I see is the extremely high, unquestioned pedestal we place science on. It's one thing to have scientific insight, curiosity, and pursuit of new knowledge, but what's going on today is we have "mainstream" science saying "F you, I don't care what you have to say" to anything that even mentions a contradiction with any currently held scientific beliefs.

Wow, ain't that the truth!

Lately though, with all the H1N1 flu vaccine scandals involving contamination with H5N1, and all the other scary crap going on with that, I've been disgusted, because the company making vaccine is Baxter, a biotech company, the same type of company I'd be working for! I want to unlock the biological secret to immortality for all humans to have, and here I'm seeing my future peers pursuing means to end life!

Ah, I see your dilemma! You are a sharp lad! You figured it out sooner than most!

Here's a suggestion: In addition to exploring the above website, you might consider checking out Nassim Haramein's work:

http://www.theresonanceproject.org/

He is doing some amazing, cutting-edge research, bridging the gap between science and spirituality. I'm a huge fan of his and I know a few others here on the forum are too. You can find a lot of his videos on youtube. He has internships available, which don't require conventional degrees. Perhaps connecting with others who have visions similar to yours might help give you some clarity and direction!

I just can't stand daily life on campus being bombarded by teachers with their lectures that just don't resonate with me, assaulted mentally by the thoughts and words of fellow students who just don't get it yet.

You sure do remind me of my son!

I tell him he really should read up on this information in the Law of One series, but he refuses solely because I constantly talk about it and I'm the one who's suggesting he read it.

Dang that free will stuff! Why can't people just 'get' it? Ha. Yeah I can soooo relate! I used to go around telling everyone about it too...until they told me I was cramming it down their throats! Now I try to just offer it, but respect their right to decline...it's really difficult sometimes! Especially when we care about them! But alas, respecting the free will of others is one of the cornerstones of the Law of One.

Nice to meet someone so young who's into the Law of One! Many blessings to you as you seek your path!