11-09-2009, 09:11 PM
Firstly, I apologize for the length of this post.
Okay, I know this sounds kind of weird. In fact, the concept is so weird to me that I can barely put it into words that make sense, but here goes:
I’ve been going through this “phase” lately, trying to figure out “where I come from.” I know it ultimately isn’t important and I’ll remember soon enough anyway, but I’ve just had this yearning inside to connect with my roots, so to speak. I’ve been talking with my guides a lot, and it seems that my roots branch out farther than I’d imagined.
Lately I’ve felt as if I’m several different people. A lot of aspects of my personality seem to contradict themselves. Those personality tests are a nightmare for me because I can’t figure out which answer I resonate with, even if it is a simple “yes” or “no”. All of the above? There’s never a box to check for that. I can actually visualize different parts of myself and talk to them, ask them their opinion, work together as a team, etc. Some of them are so distinct that they seem like entirely separate people.
I suppose where all this started was that the information my guide was telling me sometimes seemed to contradict itself. Each answer about my origins seemed relevant, but sometimes it involved me doing two entirely different things, seemingly at once. How is that possible, I’ve wondered. I feel this big tug of war within me. Part of me feels as if I have been on this earth forever, but another part looks up at the stars and is certain “home” is out there. I’ve heard I show a lot of signs of being dual activated, but I also have a lot of traits of those “first wavers” who came here long, long ago. I feel like I’ve been on both sides. I can resonate with all parties, even the “baddies” as some seem to deem them. When I take tests like the Wanderer’s test, I tend to identify with ALL types of wonderers mentioned. No matter which “test” I look at, no one answer seems applicable.
The other day I was expressing these concerns to my guides, basically wondering if they were BSing me. They kept giving answers and I kept saying “But what about this? What about that?” Then, quite abruptly, I heard this distinctly Japanese voice butting in and yelling “SHE NOT LISTEN TO ANYTHING YOU SAY! WHY YOU NOT LISTEN?!?” I was a little blown away, and this stranger was nowhere near being done. I began trying to explain myself to him and he said something along the lines of “Why you think your soul all in one place? Many selves! Different parts do different thing!”
At the time this made little sense to me. In fact, it is still hard for me to wrap my head around, but I was talking to my husband about it and he suggested that maybe I’m multiple souls in one body, merging into one identity to get things done that each facet could not do alone. He thinks maybe some other souls came along for the ride to learn some lessons, with the personality that is becoming more dominant now being the “lead“. I think perhaps several of us made an agreement beforehand. I guess after this incarnation “dies” we would separate again, but each of us would retain full memory of the incarnation?
I’ve also wondered if souls can split and do two things at once, with the halves scarcely even being aware of each other until they are united. Then there’s sharing souls. Maybe you can give a piece of your soul to someone and they can take a piece of yours and you just keep growing and evolving that way? So in “mixing” we could actually be tweaking our identities…akin to the way two parents make one child? I just feel all these different pieces inside of me and sometimes it confuses me so bad!
Then there’s my higher self. That is a whole different experience when I channel my higher self. I’ve started doing it quite often and this is distinctly different. In my higher self I am very aware of my connection to the universe. I actually feel everyone within me, and realize I am all, but this is a different feeling.
As I said, ultimately I know this isn’t something I should worry about. I know I have stuff to do here and the important thing is that I get it done whether I’m one soul or a billion or some other weird thing that can’t be described. Still, getting a better sense of self has become important to me. I feel as if I am in an important transitional phase right now and I’d like to take inventory of myself to figure out where I need to go. My guides are trying to help but sometimes I just can’t understand what they mean, even when they try to explain it so simply.
So basically I was just wondering if anyone had anything to offer on this subject? Anyone know if souls can merge or multiple souls can occupy a body or any of that stuff? Either way I don’t see it as a bad thing, I’d just really like to be more aware of what’s going on. Thanks!
Okay, I know this sounds kind of weird. In fact, the concept is so weird to me that I can barely put it into words that make sense, but here goes:
I’ve been going through this “phase” lately, trying to figure out “where I come from.” I know it ultimately isn’t important and I’ll remember soon enough anyway, but I’ve just had this yearning inside to connect with my roots, so to speak. I’ve been talking with my guides a lot, and it seems that my roots branch out farther than I’d imagined.
Lately I’ve felt as if I’m several different people. A lot of aspects of my personality seem to contradict themselves. Those personality tests are a nightmare for me because I can’t figure out which answer I resonate with, even if it is a simple “yes” or “no”. All of the above? There’s never a box to check for that. I can actually visualize different parts of myself and talk to them, ask them their opinion, work together as a team, etc. Some of them are so distinct that they seem like entirely separate people.
I suppose where all this started was that the information my guide was telling me sometimes seemed to contradict itself. Each answer about my origins seemed relevant, but sometimes it involved me doing two entirely different things, seemingly at once. How is that possible, I’ve wondered. I feel this big tug of war within me. Part of me feels as if I have been on this earth forever, but another part looks up at the stars and is certain “home” is out there. I’ve heard I show a lot of signs of being dual activated, but I also have a lot of traits of those “first wavers” who came here long, long ago. I feel like I’ve been on both sides. I can resonate with all parties, even the “baddies” as some seem to deem them. When I take tests like the Wanderer’s test, I tend to identify with ALL types of wonderers mentioned. No matter which “test” I look at, no one answer seems applicable.
The other day I was expressing these concerns to my guides, basically wondering if they were BSing me. They kept giving answers and I kept saying “But what about this? What about that?” Then, quite abruptly, I heard this distinctly Japanese voice butting in and yelling “SHE NOT LISTEN TO ANYTHING YOU SAY! WHY YOU NOT LISTEN?!?” I was a little blown away, and this stranger was nowhere near being done. I began trying to explain myself to him and he said something along the lines of “Why you think your soul all in one place? Many selves! Different parts do different thing!”
At the time this made little sense to me. In fact, it is still hard for me to wrap my head around, but I was talking to my husband about it and he suggested that maybe I’m multiple souls in one body, merging into one identity to get things done that each facet could not do alone. He thinks maybe some other souls came along for the ride to learn some lessons, with the personality that is becoming more dominant now being the “lead“. I think perhaps several of us made an agreement beforehand. I guess after this incarnation “dies” we would separate again, but each of us would retain full memory of the incarnation?
I’ve also wondered if souls can split and do two things at once, with the halves scarcely even being aware of each other until they are united. Then there’s sharing souls. Maybe you can give a piece of your soul to someone and they can take a piece of yours and you just keep growing and evolving that way? So in “mixing” we could actually be tweaking our identities…akin to the way two parents make one child? I just feel all these different pieces inside of me and sometimes it confuses me so bad!
Then there’s my higher self. That is a whole different experience when I channel my higher self. I’ve started doing it quite often and this is distinctly different. In my higher self I am very aware of my connection to the universe. I actually feel everyone within me, and realize I am all, but this is a different feeling.
As I said, ultimately I know this isn’t something I should worry about. I know I have stuff to do here and the important thing is that I get it done whether I’m one soul or a billion or some other weird thing that can’t be described. Still, getting a better sense of self has become important to me. I feel as if I am in an important transitional phase right now and I’d like to take inventory of myself to figure out where I need to go. My guides are trying to help but sometimes I just can’t understand what they mean, even when they try to explain it so simply.
So basically I was just wondering if anyone had anything to offer on this subject? Anyone know if souls can merge or multiple souls can occupy a body or any of that stuff? Either way I don’t see it as a bad thing, I’d just really like to be more aware of what’s going on. Thanks!