12-10-2011, 06:40 PM
Nothing to do with black and white labels, it has to do w ith the experience that you as the adonai has. In my view
My experience has been one of darkness, because i have made choices to be with creatures that are inherantly dark, through my emotional choices and actions. I did the choice in an effort to go help them come over to the light, when, ineed, i have relaised that it is only I that must go to the light.
I knew this step would be ahead of me, since i deployed my emotional ballast 2 weeks back.
I was with a group of people and chose to take on possessions to understand their possessions better. Every one of the people that I Wanted to help in my previous life I've now helped.
So, now the possessions serve no purpose, my suffering, and my pain, my bad choices are all completed and healed, the reasons for the bad c hoices are behind me.
Now it is time to start making different choices.
It will only be as difficult as I want it to be.
Sucks that I love the difficulty that is life
The answer to being STO is to relax. But teaching a brain thats learned to do nothing but stress for 20 years to just sit and relax is hard work. Paradoxically.
My experience has been one of darkness, because i have made choices to be with creatures that are inherantly dark, through my emotional choices and actions. I did the choice in an effort to go help them come over to the light, when, ineed, i have relaised that it is only I that must go to the light.
I knew this step would be ahead of me, since i deployed my emotional ballast 2 weeks back.
I was with a group of people and chose to take on possessions to understand their possessions better. Every one of the people that I Wanted to help in my previous life I've now helped.
So, now the possessions serve no purpose, my suffering, and my pain, my bad choices are all completed and healed, the reasons for the bad c hoices are behind me.
Now it is time to start making different choices.
It will only be as difficult as I want it to be.
Sucks that I love the difficulty that is life
The answer to being STO is to relax. But teaching a brain thats learned to do nothing but stress for 20 years to just sit and relax is hard work. Paradoxically.