On the Higher Self

[Ankh]

Again, I feel like it is simply the potential of an entity to reach 7D which would produce a Higher Self. And, again, my personal guess is that this potential is reach graduation to 3D from 2D.

Again, I am saying that just because all 3D entities have the potential to develop the Higher Self, doesn't mean that they have yet. Also the Higher Self is 6D, not 7D.

You have to reach 7D, the density where the mind/body/spirit totality/beingness resides, which is what creates the Higher Self before it turns itself to the Creator.

I think that as soon as the entity enters 3D, and develops the spirit complex, it gains what is called Higher Self. But I might be wrong.

It seems that STS entities, if Himmler is a decent example of most STS entities, simply choose not to use guidance. So the Higher Self is sort of pointless to a negative entity.

I don't know that he is a decent example of what I am talking about. Himmler was not an adept.

I don't think that Higher Self is pointless to the negative entity. STS and STO are just two different paths to the same thing. And I think that the negative entities, adepts or not, can choose to have a guidance from the Higher Self too. That path, as the positive path, is still leading to the same source, right? And Higher Self residing in mid sixth density, is without the polarity, as far as I understand it. In the discussion of negative beings having hard time with the merging with Higher Self is due the necessesity to recognize other selves as the Creator, while they previously have seen only themselves as the Creator, which positive beings have much, much easier time with.

I get very bored and disinterested in this reality sometimes, though that seems to come in cycles.

Honestly I can't pinpoint my desire to experience more than this reality. Sometimes it's non-existent and sometimes it's burning.

My life can be freaking awesome, and still from time to time I find myself being in a melancholic mood, not present, being "some place else". When I "return", at times I don't even know where I've been. But I feel the pain inside, because I miss something very deeply. It's getting better though, and work in consciousness is what has been of aid for me in that matter.

One of my biggest incarnational lessons in this life time, as far as I understood it, is to wake myself up more, and more, being more aware, more conscious in order to learn to be present in the now.

But there are times I feel like the will of others is forced upon me, and I often feel trapped in this body, behind this veil.

I recognize this. Since I moved out of my parent's house, I have been seeking and desiring a total freedom. But, the circumstances sometimes are such, that you still feel being trapped, either by yourself, or other selves, or life in general. It's getting better though, with years. I think it depends on the shift your consciousness makes as it progresses, and you learn to recognize the Creator in all things and beings, so instead of feeling trapped you start to appreciate it. (Much easier said than done, and I am not there yet!).