11-14-2011, 10:42 AM
(This post was last modified: 11-14-2011, 10:54 AM by AnthroHeart.)
Back on 10/28/11 I had an experience I had to call 911 because my mind kept expanding and I couldn't contain it. I had created this beautiful creation, but then I saw the dark side of it, and couldn't escape. I thought I was being pulled into the negative side of my creation, into negative 4D. That was frightening. There was heat and it made my body hurt. I looked up "new type of star" on google, and found "cataclysmic variable star", which freaked me out even more, since I thought I was heading into this star.
It actually gave me thoughts of suicide for a moment when I thought I was going to have to live in the 4D negative side of what I had created. Then I went to a mental hospital for the week. Doing much better now, although there are still fears of "losing control" of my creation. I seriously thought I had made a mistake in this creation.
I wonder if facing all of our fears is part of the harvest. There's some really creepy stuff that was hard for me to embrace. And I can attest to the not really sleeping for 3-4 days, being energized.
Though there was an equal amount of love in my experience to balance it all out. But the amount of synchronicities, and universal-level knowledge available can be frightening.
It actually gave me thoughts of suicide for a moment when I thought I was going to have to live in the 4D negative side of what I had created. Then I went to a mental hospital for the week. Doing much better now, although there are still fears of "losing control" of my creation. I seriously thought I had made a mistake in this creation.
I wonder if facing all of our fears is part of the harvest. There's some really creepy stuff that was hard for me to embrace. And I can attest to the not really sleeping for 3-4 days, being energized.
Though there was an equal amount of love in my experience to balance it all out. But the amount of synchronicities, and universal-level knowledge available can be frightening.