(11-04-2011, 11:17 PM)3DMonkey Wrote: On the inside, I am Mark Whalberg's character in The Departed. Seriously. This is the person I have suppressed in order to exist in this world. If I ever let that dude out, in honesty, I'd lose everything. Ironically, all the spiritual hoo nanny says I should let to and give it to the universe, but you people, and everyone else, would lynch me in a split second if I did that.
Let go, that is. And so... My most honest mustering is to come clean that I am a Third Density Neanderthal. "3DMonkey"
Own it.
Have you tried imagining yourself as Mark Wahlberg and imagining saying all the things you feel like saying?
I forget what his character was like in that movie but I think you're saying you have a lot of anger and aggression. Both Ra and psychologists would recommend that you imagine yourself engaging in the aggression so that you can process it and come to terms with it. A psych would recommend deep breathing and EMDR while you imagine, as well as writing nasty letters and stuff like that which you don't need to send. Ra would recommend some kind of meditation I guess?
Anyway that would allow you to deal with the aggression and experience the lesson without incurring the bad karma.
I've done this process before and it has worked for me. After really feeling my anger and imagining beating people up and torturing them and stuff I was able to forgive. It all happened in my imagination just like Ra recommends. I believe this is a method of true forgiveness.