Awaking of a humbled creator

[Ali Quadir]

I don't know why I am here, except maybe being here is a reason to be here. I am but a shadow of my former self.

Are you? Or did you decide that's what you are? Clearly you connect to this higher self that you are. You can feel it's basic vibe well enough to speak from it. Meaning it's still in there. Also I draw your attention towards the fact that the world has not ended yet. It seems if your memories of this creation are true. And I believe it has to be part of your core. Then you're presumably still on the job. Are you a shadow of your former self? Or an avatar?

Like FairyFarmGirl I also believe in front row seats. I'm here with a goal, but that goal was completed as soon as I realized I was human. So yeah, I too believe that if you're not feeding loving fighting and occasionally dive into ecstasy or a broken heart you're missing out.

My goal as I began to understand it was specifically to be human. Nothing more nothing less. You don't have to be karmically addicted to it. It's probably better if we're not. But aloofness or renunciation are symptoms of not connecting fully. This is only a problem however if like for me that was the goal.

To put it bluntly, if you don't care, that's not good. If you care so much that you can't leave things behind, then that's not good either. Dirt will hit us, does it stick or does it fall off? In other words, does it define us? Or are we defining ourselves in spite of it?

That's behind me, in front of me is this huge adventure that really only happens once in maybe a few thousands of lifetimes. I might have come here with a goal, but I now am here for the fun of it!