Caring/Compassion/Sensitivity/Tact vs Lying/Faking

[Oceania]

as for social conventions. i have to agree with Unity, that i never understood such fakery until later in my life when i've started merging a little more with normal people's views. politeness, the ways things work on this planet. it's not cold fakery for evil purposes, it's being considerate, and holding your tongue for personal reasons. to smooth things or avoid undue conflict. or just a habit you've learned. it's oil for the machine. you can say these are things that make the world the shithole it is. or you can say, "hey, this world is a work of art." i don't like the bad parts but i've learned to love this planet and its unique beauty, social flaws included. i mean, when i was a kid i was blindly honest and tried to explain things to the Nth degree because i felt like the telepathic aspect was missing. which leads me to conclude i remember in past life that i was telepathic, that life was honest. and when this backfired, i got cynical, and then i got confused. after that i started appreciating the weird complexities of humans. and hoped someday i could be normal like them. because i see the world as partly very beautiful and i've never been a part of it. i've always been on the outside of normal life. it's lonely to be on the outside. i don't care anymore that i'm right and they're wrong, i don't care anymore i know the soap rules. if you know the soap rules, you're an outsider in that soap and never get to experience the beauty of it the way the others do. that's my way because i love art, but Unity seems to be mathematical. maybe he doesn't appreciate art as much as calculations.