10-16-2009, 02:50 AM
I was born into small family on Earth.
My first memories of becoming aware was when I was 2 or 3 and trying to make sense of this world. I was shy, was not popular.
My sense of recollection is strange, my own recollection was of a creator, able to create things on thought, from nothingness to space/time, and then from there, create first stars to anchor (what human scientists call as super-massive-black-hole), from anchor to galaxy, from galaxy to clusters and then maintain them. In doing to, I seek to understand why, what, and how. To design a star system, to understand side-effects of gravity, from very little, encoding pieces of DNA to very large making stars, then planets, then making them in orbit around a sun. From there, to make a tree, to suck water from ground, and insects to till soil. Grass to hold soil, and later, animals to run around.
The more difficult was to make a bi-pedal entity, to give reason and intellect, and to give it free-will. The ability of free-will and ability to choose right and wrong. To let them live their lives and choices. They divided into best known as STS (Serve themselves) and STO (Serve the creator). Worship was to infinite creator, it was unfortunate that those who were STS then "redirected" worship to those of themselves. The thing ran its course, and eventually, I had to perform a harvest, which was approx 100 entities, 5 going to higher, 95 going lower.
I was a lost soul here, unable to understand why I came here, except that maybe some lessons I did not learn, or misunderstood lessons. I feel ashamed to be here, yet somehow, maybe for a prince to understand the people, to be a commoner? or maybe a commoner who saw a glimpse of the nobility? I do not know.
I was browsing around and came eventually found this site. I agree much with the Ra material, and it resonates much with me. I often call them the "Anikiet Ra" material, "Ah-aton", "OO-xal", "K'aaah-Owl", as if somehow I knew them, but I don't know why.
I don't know why I am here, except maybe being here is a reason to be here. I am but a shadow of my former self.
My first memories of becoming aware was when I was 2 or 3 and trying to make sense of this world. I was shy, was not popular.
My sense of recollection is strange, my own recollection was of a creator, able to create things on thought, from nothingness to space/time, and then from there, create first stars to anchor (what human scientists call as super-massive-black-hole), from anchor to galaxy, from galaxy to clusters and then maintain them. In doing to, I seek to understand why, what, and how. To design a star system, to understand side-effects of gravity, from very little, encoding pieces of DNA to very large making stars, then planets, then making them in orbit around a sun. From there, to make a tree, to suck water from ground, and insects to till soil. Grass to hold soil, and later, animals to run around.
The more difficult was to make a bi-pedal entity, to give reason and intellect, and to give it free-will. The ability of free-will and ability to choose right and wrong. To let them live their lives and choices. They divided into best known as STS (Serve themselves) and STO (Serve the creator). Worship was to infinite creator, it was unfortunate that those who were STS then "redirected" worship to those of themselves. The thing ran its course, and eventually, I had to perform a harvest, which was approx 100 entities, 5 going to higher, 95 going lower.
I was a lost soul here, unable to understand why I came here, except that maybe some lessons I did not learn, or misunderstood lessons. I feel ashamed to be here, yet somehow, maybe for a prince to understand the people, to be a commoner? or maybe a commoner who saw a glimpse of the nobility? I do not know.
I was browsing around and came eventually found this site. I agree much with the Ra material, and it resonates much with me. I often call them the "Anikiet Ra" material, "Ah-aton", "OO-xal", "K'aaah-Owl", as if somehow I knew them, but I don't know why.
I don't know why I am here, except maybe being here is a reason to be here. I am but a shadow of my former self.
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