Oldern, Ra says many catalysts go to waste, i ask why bother with the ones that do? it's everyone's choice after all and if we can eliminate the ones that do no good.
i'm not a seeker. i've always had a drive to find out what it all means. i mean yeah i've had mental illness and the like, and what really made me look for answers was deaths of people i cared about, but this need has always been there and i find it annoying. if someone wants to keep their life simple and not seek trouble like we do, i say power to em. all i've gotten out of seeking is a world of complexities that overwhelm me. and still my curiosity continues. it's like a disease. i want a picket fence and 2.5 kids yanno? not all this weird crap, but i'm always drawn to it. even before i "woke up" i was into it. i was into skeletons and witches and astral projection and aliens. i was fascinated and never closed-minded. i never said there is no santa. i know there is a Santa. i know there are anything i imagine and want to be real. i believe with my heart, my head is just something for navigation. what i'm saying if you really want to know things beyond, then you will. i don't want to glorify disease to be some great help. often it's not. lets not oversimplify somethig that's painful for many people. you may but i won't.
i'm not a seeker. i've always had a drive to find out what it all means. i mean yeah i've had mental illness and the like, and what really made me look for answers was deaths of people i cared about, but this need has always been there and i find it annoying. if someone wants to keep their life simple and not seek trouble like we do, i say power to em. all i've gotten out of seeking is a world of complexities that overwhelm me. and still my curiosity continues. it's like a disease. i want a picket fence and 2.5 kids yanno? not all this weird crap, but i'm always drawn to it. even before i "woke up" i was into it. i was into skeletons and witches and astral projection and aliens. i was fascinated and never closed-minded. i never said there is no santa. i know there is a Santa. i know there are anything i imagine and want to be real. i believe with my heart, my head is just something for navigation. what i'm saying if you really want to know things beyond, then you will. i don't want to glorify disease to be some great help. often it's not. lets not oversimplify somethig that's painful for many people. you may but i won't.
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