(09-23-2011, 09:54 AM)Icaro Wrote: Try finding a time during the day to meditate. It's meditating at night that's bothering you..you feel like something is around you or watching you. I used to feel the same way.
This may be very useful, until you get used to your own way to "get there", luuchie. Most people are prone to instinctively and unwittingly feel safer in light. Find your own "warm safety" tool - prayer, One's light visualization, light shell...
I tried to began too fast... Not a good idea, of course.
So then I looked firstly just for the sheer pleasure of being relaxed, bodily relaxed. Mind stillness uses to be more difficult the get, but I would say sooner or later it comes. One day it appears, maybe for just a while, but then you know it and know how it feels and, so, you know what to look for.
Take your time and enjoy!