There is light at the end of the tunnel after all... an introduction

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I'm glad to hear you're progressing. One recommendation is that you not worry about achieving total silent meditation. People tend to become frustrated with the process, but meditation at its most basic level is silent contemplation of your thoughts/feelings. Meditation can instantly reveal an insight, but generally speaking, I've found that if you meditate regularly with the simple intention of laying silently with no necessity to totally reduce thoughts, the most significant impact seems to be occurring in the roots of the mind..at an almost unconscious level. Having thoughts flow through you won't affect the outcome.

So when you meditate, while you may feel centered and at peace, people tend to walk away from a meditation session thinking that nothing 'happened' or was revealed if they didn't receive some kind of insight. I've found that over a period of weeks or months, what was realized in the roots of your mind seeps its way up into your conscious thoughts. So over time realizations seem to appear, but the path was cleared in meditation.

At times, when I meditate every day I feel like I'm receiving too much information as I seem to sense it on a subconscious level. So I actually take meditation breaks, where I won't meditate for a few days or even a couple of weeks. I never have a goal to lay down and meditate for two hours. If after 20 minutes I feel that is enough, I'm fine with it.