My Dark Night of the Soul

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I don't know whats going to happen to me, but I'm not begging for handouts and I am not degrading myself to a service job where I'll get bitched at and made fun of, just like Wal-Mart.

I'll have to give my cat to my parents because I can't feed him and my parents are remodeling their house so there is no room for me and my belongings there, and they are the last ones who want me back there. I really don't get along with my step-father so I can't go back.

#1 dont be ashamed from accepting any kind of help given by good hearted people. accepting what is freely given in good heart with good spirits is a spiritual practice. you get clogged if you refuse the good intentions of others. doesnt have to be your parents.

#2 taking on something temporary until you sort your sh@t out is never a bad decision. its not like you will have bowed down to system. buy enough time.

#3 secure the cat asap

I don't even care anymore. I just want my cat to have a good home. He's the only thing that brought me real joy. I just don't care.....f*ck-it all.

have you checked the links i have given ?

this is not about whether you care or not - its about what you want to do. it is 100% that there are temporal things that you may be wanting to do at this point. if you need to survive until you sort out your spiritual matters, you can find things to do to survive until you sort them out.

i have given you two links. in elance solely, $450 million+ worth of work has been done up till this date in between people. people like you, me, the others.

there are a lot of people who didnt want to do what they were forced to by their circumstances or family or society et al and started taking up the kind of jobs they like by working by themselves. there are writers, consultants, artists, programmers and many other kinds of people there.

its people working with people there. you dont need to bow to anyone or any kind of exploitation scheme. and since you already have varied experience under your belt, you can find something you may want to do in there.

check it out.

http://www.elance.com

writing and translation jobs currently open :

http://www.elance.com/r/jobs/q-writing/c...ranslation

there are even jobs in sub-category of resume and cover letter writing, as an example :

http://www.elance.com/r/jobs/q-writing/c...ters-10240

there are even people looking for people to work as telemarketers :

http://www.elance.com/r/jobs/q-writing/c...ting-12502

openings in finance and accounting :

http://www.elance.com/r/jobs/q-writing/c...management

there is even a job open for having someone draw cartoon illustrations as of this moment :

http://www.elance.com/r/jobs/q-writing/c...mics-12231

the openings in web & programming, and admin support are as usual, endless :

http://www.elance.com/r/jobs/q-writing/c...rogramming
http://www.elance.com/r/jobs/q-writing/c...in-support

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there are often people looking for people to employ as permanent, on-site employees.

again, this is not about you care or not, its about what you want to do. decide on what you want to do, and hammer your way until you reach your destination.