My Dark Night of the Soul

[Namaste]

I agree with unity in regards to facing your mother. If you can do so without getting emotionally involved - which will be hard, but entirely possible, you will have made a huge leap in your evolution. All of these factors seem to be testing you to the limit at the moment, shaking your foundations.

Many awakening people have gone through this - it's a rough ride to start, but there is always light at the end of the tunnel. Always.

It's fantastic that you smelt one of your guides, she was letting you know you're getting help. Help from the metaphysical realm - non-physical consciousness - is invaluable. They can help orchestrate things that you would deem impossible. Open up to their help, ask for it (genuinely, without asking for specifics), and you'll get it. That's why they are there.

I's also wonderful to see that you've learned the lesson that you're being provided with food. This will help unblock your red energy centre (root chakra) and give you a means to really start to work on yourself. This is the orange ray (sacral chakra). It already sounds like you are on the way, so continue to feel comfortable with who you are and what you want to be, do and think. The more you do so, the more that ray will open, allowing energy to reach the yellow ray. You mother appears to have the ability to dominate you. This, quite clearly, is a yellow ray imbalance. If you allow yourself to be dominated (i.e. let her make decisions for you that do not resonate with you), this is a yellow ray blockage.

Hence, facing your mother and being strong about who you are, without getting angry or filled with resentment, would be an exponential boost for you.

From there, the green ray will be much more open to you, which will allow you to trust that you're supported unconditionally, which in turn, leads to the activations of the higher rays.

Remember, all these events are catalyst for you. They are massive opportunities for growth. Take them!

Much love, dear brother :¬)