Why do wanderers have low self-esteem

[yossarian]

- low self esteem is different than no ego, i have low self esteem and it's an imbalance really. not good. i still have a big ego that refuses to die. i remember always being treated or reacted to differently even when i tried to act assimilated. i didn't know why people could sense my weirdness, i still don't.

I agree, self-esteem is who you are, ego is a barrier built to defend yourself. I have refused to work on my problem for a long time. My non-acceptance of self and other self even caused me dyslexia. Now through daily meditation for about 5 months, the problems are disappearing fast, especially in this month, no human interaction required! To anyone who hesitate to consciously work on their issues, daily meditation is highly recommended, there is no struggle whatsoever. Sometimes I feel meditation is almost like a form of cheating in spiritual development. I wonder is there to difference between working in a conscious manner through struggle and just meditating. It seems like meditation solves all problems. May be we can just be lazy and totally rely on meditation?

Meditation doesn't always work for everyone all the time. Sounds like it's working for you right now! Milk it for all it's worth!

At points in my life I've reached a point where meditation seemed to stop helping, and even hurt. Twists and turns!

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Maybe Mozart was a poor lover while Salieri was like a god in the sack?

Nope. Mozart was reknown for his sex acts. Salieri on the other hand was a cold fish.

You compose like you f***, it's a universal law.