He Who Was Not

[Tenet Nosce]

Happy 4/20, Azrael! Welcome to the forum!

You know, earlier I was watching A&E's Ancient Mysteries: Astrology on Netflix. They were talking about how an astrologer had made a public prediction that the best ruler for Germany would have a birthdate of 4/20. Of course, Hitler's birthday was April 20, 1889. So also a Happy Belated 122nd Birthday to Hitler. We appreciate the valuable lessons you have taught us about life and the human condition.

Even unity is multiple unities, likely most effectively visualized as a tree with the higher self as the Eternal Seed permeating every portion, yet the leaves are the leaves. But for the sake of ease I'll use standard context.

I totally get what you mean. I was just talking about different flavors of unity, and how the "dark" side identifies unity with sameness, but denies all the others. Kind of like the First Commandment: Thou Shalt Not Put Other Gods Before Me.

I suppose I can't start a story of awakening in a way that there was a beginning, the closest I can describe is my decent in to the body. For myself, the body lay dormant for 3 months after birth for a reason difficult to explain, blind from a pelvic impact, after this period was when I "awoke". I gained sight on this day, to the elusion of explanation. In any case, for me I feel my whole life has been a gradual awakening process, and certainly nowhere near complete.

Wanna take another stab at explanation? I would like to know!

Trying to maybe keep it brief I will say I was raised with Catholic beliefs, although I never found myself particularly drawn to the actual examination of the scriptures, I said the God's prayer and believed in the force of it, it didn't need anything else, everything else was just ideas.

Do you mean the Lord's Prayer? I have an interesting theory about the part of the liturgy that comes after the Lord's Prayer. Can you remember what it was?

I have always had a fascination with the imagination and the concepts of energy. In my pre-teens I spent many hours conceptualizing about martial arts and ideas using directed energy through the body to produce phenomenon.

What kind of phenomenon?

I did not understand it as I do now for a long time, which is natural, and in high school I went through a gothic sort of phase and indulged in the study of suffering, torture, experimentation and exploitation.

Growing up, I could never figure out why all the goth kids tried to look the same. Now I can see how it is a mirror for the monoculture of society to see themselves. I wonder if anybody really ever looks? Most people just think Marilyn Manson is the "devil". Manson? Wasn't he that serial killer guy? And Marilyn? Isn't that a girl's name? It really is a great ninja move, I must admit.

I certainly can't neglect my other examinations either since they all fall in to the whole, I am aware that this site is Confederation oriented but they do not consist the universe, so for the sake of my story...

What do you mean by "this site is Confederation oriented"?

I cannot deny that part of my progress has been subsidied with some drug experimentation, something I feel to have been quite necessary. Whether or not this is so for everyone is entirely subjective, but on my particular path my experiences with LSD in particular have done what I'd say is like allowing a foot in the door, it burned my curiosity.

Yes, I was just sharing some of my personal experiences with seejay21 in my Journey to the One:

Thanks for sharing your story. I too, have employed various substances in order to elevate my consciousness. In my experience, mushrooms and ayahuasca both resulted in some sort of lasting change. Marijuana is good for short bursts of deep thinking, but the effects are neither reliable nor long-lasting.

One time that I took some LSD many years ago, I was sure that I was "this close" to going insane. It was like something was making itself known that my consciousness was not prepared to receive. It kind of scared the crap out of me to tell you the truth!

Every now and again things start to spin really quickly in my mind. If it starts to feel too overwhelming, I just go outside and put my feet in the grass, breathe some fresh air, and feel the sunlight on my skin. Some fresh water always helps as well.

Remember, we don't need to understand it all right now. Understanding is not of this density!

So we come to the idea of the higher self, according to these teachings that point in mid-sixth density where the negative and positive paths unite. This in particular I found very notable, especially since I mentioned above those tortured souls walking the negative paths of alone to the alone, considering thus that our higher self is a balanced positive, in that it is still equally negative, but the negativity has become a launch pad for increased positivity. Only through suffering can alleviation of suffering exist.

I am particularly fond of the lessons of mid-sixth density.

This is why here on Earth, a planet of water, of healing, we have gone through such a long period of suffering. If we are to master our potential we must explore its necessities to infinite capacities, this place is a school of wisdom, of compassion. For teachings are best in example and experience.

There are many who would like to heal, but do not know where to begin. I recommend the self as a great place to start!

Indeed. I know others have expressed hearing the alarm clocks going off.

I believe "I" was "previously" in the fifth density, that being the closest incarnation of my higher self in time.

Me too!

I have connections to the goddess Bast (as a protector), my Mom's patron Goddess and higher self Isis, Osiris in a natural way and also have very strong reason to believe I am in parallel incarnation with Akhenaten. My girlfriend, whom has no connection nor knowledge of egypt directed a message to me resonating as Nefertiti and instantly I felt the closeness of the connection, like speaking to a lost lover, I had also heard in a clairaudient way the name of Amenhotep some time earlier so the catalyst was natural.

Was just taking about those two in More Positive but Less Harvestable. What a coincidence! Maybe you can shed some light on the theory offered.

Darkness is light, this is evidenced by our shadows which is just as much a part of the movement of light as the colours we see interplaying across our constant vision. I am here to awaken all to the suffering, the sorrow, the pain that has bled this world for millenia, to see that it is now flowing out, reaching towards the final release! Stand fast, and believe in yourself, you are the One, I am the One, we are all the One. Adonai, may your passings be of peace.

Darkness is in-deed light, and not the absence thereof. You'd think we would have figured this out by now?