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[Nyu]

I haven't posted in a while, I wasn't sure if I should anymore, but at the same time I kind of wanted to share this ODD experience I had last weekend! So I might as well..

I "got it"!!! I don't know how or why, but something happened last weekend and my body filled up with this magnetic energy to the point where the whole room was heavy and the lights in the room were compressing and swirling in a spiral. I had this weird focus/pressure in my mind and I had perfect concentration, and I think I actually bent space/time. I swear I am not kidding or messing with you. I don't know what happened, but at the time it all just made sense and it was just so easy that I didn't even have to think about it. I'm also pretty sure my BF was reading my thoughts because I was yelling stuff out to him in my mind and on cue he was laughing at me with everything that I said (and I never spoke out loud). I don't know if he even knows consciously, or maybe he just wont tell because the stuff that my mind was revealing to him was pretty raw, and I was embarrassed. I realised just what this whole "we are one" thing means, and it made me really aware to be careful about what we think of one another now, because in a higher dimension, this stuff is all just out there for everyone to hear/see.

And that's not even the strangest part!! A short time later I went outside and there was a snail on the concrete, and I was looking at it, and my BF's cat was there, and I didn't want the cat to attack the snail, so I put my hands around it in a circle with the idea of protection in my mind and I was watching it grazing on the algae on the cement. Then I had this weird thought to put my finger near it, to see what it does.. and the snail became aware of me and it started reaching its feelers out towards my finger. Then I pulled my hand away, and the strangest thing happened!! The snail actually TURNED to look me straight in the eyes and started reaching out toward my head! Impossibly reaching! I didn't know what was going on, and I got frightened so I jumped up and broke the contact and ran inside. I don't know what I did to that snail - did I make it self aware/give it consciousness/make it think I was god?? It was totally by accident and I don't know if it was a good or a bad thing.

I'm still trying to comprehend, and I'm still so bewildered. But at the time I felt like I understood who I am, what my purpose is, why I'm here - all the questions that I've had for a while now. I realised I AM the energy of Gaia - or that's what I'm meant to discover.. it sounds strange, but I felt completely whole as a being, I felt connected to the mother energy of nature. It was the most amazing feeling I have ever had.

So I didn't know if I should come back to the forum, because I understand now that my learning needs to come from within. I fasted for a few days after this experience, trying to get that feeling of completeness back, and it kind of happened, but I also got really obsessed with food because I was too hungry, so I broke it, but I'm going to try again. I've also started looking into Chi energy, because I think that's what it was.. but on a massive level! I'm thinking this might be the next step.

Anyway, I hope that something of what I have shared is interesting, or resonates with you guys in some way. Maybe you're starting to have these experiences too? Is this part of the transition into 4th density? I felt at the time like I WAS in 4th density. It was insane but amazing at the same time. It's really hard being back in boring old 3rd density. I'm kind of going through a depression again now. I hope I snap out of it again soon.

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