06-08-2011, 05:02 AM
Wow I'm sorry that it took me so long to get around to reading this thread.
Not to take away from your story Xenos, or anyone elses who has gone through something similar.. I relate also! I grew up with an abusive alcoholic father who would rape my mother constantly, beat her up and put a gun to her head in front of us and tell us to say goodbye to her etc. He started on my brother and when I was 6 and my brother 8, my mother finally got the courage to take us and run, and we spent a couple of years on the run from him (before the police found us and decided that he had right to us because my mother didn't do the "legally correct" thing by fleeing the state)
anyway! the eyes changing thing reminds me of my dad too. I don't know what it means in the LOO sense, are they orion beings that we are born from? I have NO CLUE!!
RE: forgiving people like that, I do not know the answer. I don't know that "forgiveness" means loving and accepting them in the same sense that you would the rest of your family, because the things they do are unforgiveable in the human sense. I wonder if it might mean that you would still treat them as you would anyone - in that if they come to you for help you will not turn them away. But it doesn't mean you have to be around it or put up with it, and if they are hurting someone, then your obligation needs to be to the person who needs your help the most.
I've thought about this to an extreme sense as a parent, that if someone did something terrible to my child - or wanted to and I could stop it - I would probably kill them (not that I condone these actions). I asked myself, if I killed someone who was hurting my child does that make me a bad person? Does that mean I cannot progress spiritually? In a way I'm kind of helping the person I killed because obviously their polarity has severely messed up somewhere along the line and I could be guiding them back to a lower level so that they might start again. Again I'm not suggesting or condoning such a thing.. but I have a fierce protectiveness toward my family and so it is something I have contemplated.
Not to take away from your story Xenos, or anyone elses who has gone through something similar.. I relate also! I grew up with an abusive alcoholic father who would rape my mother constantly, beat her up and put a gun to her head in front of us and tell us to say goodbye to her etc. He started on my brother and when I was 6 and my brother 8, my mother finally got the courage to take us and run, and we spent a couple of years on the run from him (before the police found us and decided that he had right to us because my mother didn't do the "legally correct" thing by fleeing the state)
anyway! the eyes changing thing reminds me of my dad too. I don't know what it means in the LOO sense, are they orion beings that we are born from? I have NO CLUE!!
RE: forgiving people like that, I do not know the answer. I don't know that "forgiveness" means loving and accepting them in the same sense that you would the rest of your family, because the things they do are unforgiveable in the human sense. I wonder if it might mean that you would still treat them as you would anyone - in that if they come to you for help you will not turn them away. But it doesn't mean you have to be around it or put up with it, and if they are hurting someone, then your obligation needs to be to the person who needs your help the most.
I've thought about this to an extreme sense as a parent, that if someone did something terrible to my child - or wanted to and I could stop it - I would probably kill them (not that I condone these actions). I asked myself, if I killed someone who was hurting my child does that make me a bad person? Does that mean I cannot progress spiritually? In a way I'm kind of helping the person I killed because obviously their polarity has severely messed up somewhere along the line and I could be guiding them back to a lower level so that they might start again. Again I'm not suggesting or condoning such a thing.. but I have a fierce protectiveness toward my family and so it is something I have contemplated.