Greetings with love, pain and sadness

[Meerie]

My short tale is a mixed bag. Since childhood I have been hypersensitive to my enviroment and my inner forces. I rembember starting out as a very happy child. I spread love around me very naturally, was very honest (stupidly honest) and was rarely mean.

Sounds very familiar to me. Same as:

This world is a place of constant conflict. I was tought to avoid problems and defer to grownups. One became sheep as a child for the wolfs to feast on. More like psychic vampires then wolfs. No lesson was ever tought to stand for oneself. To love oneself. To lead oneself. What was tought was to do as one was told. Obedience. That instead of being tought to confront problems one avoids them.

No one in my familly bothered to prepair me for the cruel reality of this place and so I was overprotected and unprepaired. During my naive and gullible years of ignorance I experienced the foul corruption of the people here. Teachers, "friends", familly, the zombies on the street. Rotten seemingly to the core, deceitfull, dominant, greed as god, cowardice. The list could go on forever as well as my negative story of accumulated garbage and anger.

Again, you sort of write my story.
Welcome to the forum! I am looking forward to read more of you.