05-30-2011, 02:39 PM
(05-15-2011, 07:46 AM)Nyu Wrote: During the evening before this experience I had a profound conscious breakthrough in my understanding of what it means to become self-aware. When the thought happened a very large blue light flashed above my head. I feel there might be some kind of relationship between the breakthrough and the attack, but I am not certain. I wonder if these attacks happen because my mind is weak somehow and I need to figure out how to strengthen it. If there is any advice anyone can give on mind-strengthening exercises, I would be very appreciative, but I also understand that learning comes from within so I will keep on trying.
Hi, Nyu.
You might find it useful to think of these sorts of advances paired with challenges as both ways of testing your commitment to what you know in your heart to be true as well as opportunities to deepen your faith in your own process of spiritual growth. Ra comments several times that greater awareness is then challenged this way so that it may become more balanced and deeply seated within oneself. Thinking of it this way helps me keep focused upon my goal...to the extent that I am able to do so.