05-05-2011, 10:02 PM
Thank you brother's and Sisters. I truly appreciate your wonderful thoughts.
Confused, Thank you for the link, I truly feel like I am walking the path of the Hero, it resonated with me very intensely ... It was very coincidental because I had a strong urge to watch this movie last night (anime movie), I don't know if many of you heard but I am very into the Final Fantasy game series... I was watching Advent Children (IDENTICAL expression of a hero - Cloud) and I had this overwhelming sense of connection with the character, as well as what I was reading. Final Fantasy is amazing, I highly suggest you all take a look at the message written all over the game. It speaks of many universal truths as well as problems, and allows the youth to play out each consequence in a role-playing format.
Ankh, Thank you again for reminding me that the power of love can be used as a fierce weapon, I do understand that deep down inside of my father, he is lost and confused as well. He is one, we are all one deep down inside of us, but he does not want to accept the oneness. It is this process in which I want to walk him along, to harmony and happiness. If things get worse, I will consider taking legal action just to protect my family, but for now, due to the fact that I am only 18 and I have no power (money/job) to direct such legal action... and my mother does not as well since my father hogs all the money and so-called "power" in the house; I am going to weather the storm and do what I can to protect my family and negate the negativity. But then again, I also realize that there are people far worse then me, forgive me if I was viewing things to narrow-minded... I still thank my father for the fact that he is here with us. He just needs to accept change, and stop the negativity from polarizing him.
I know it is going to continue; catalysts never dissapear, they only get used and reused in different forms. I am still open to learning out of these events, which constantly repeat again and again in my life. But one thing's different now, I feel as if I need to take action and to be the change in which i dream. I am still going to continue trying to change my father, but in a different, more loving way. However, if he keeps on denying this friendly request, I feel as if I need to take a more serious approach. And I also realize that sometimes, I can't do it alone.... There is so much love out there and how can i deny it? I feel so young and naive... and stupid sometimes. I never knew I trapped so much of my emotions for the sake of others... I need to love myself more in order to help those around me. But I am learning, and I am open to learn, I feel so motivated again!
Thank you so much all of you. Thank you for praying for me, I felt your energies reach me yesterday... As I was sleeping I felt a very warm presence throughout the night, warming and circulating my body. I love you all so much, we are all here for each other. Everything will be revealed sooner or later, everything will be clear and known. But till then when we realize that our this game has ended, I am going to fight, love and enjoy the ride it brings.
L&L
Confused, Thank you for the link, I truly feel like I am walking the path of the Hero, it resonated with me very intensely ... It was very coincidental because I had a strong urge to watch this movie last night (anime movie), I don't know if many of you heard but I am very into the Final Fantasy game series... I was watching Advent Children (IDENTICAL expression of a hero - Cloud) and I had this overwhelming sense of connection with the character, as well as what I was reading. Final Fantasy is amazing, I highly suggest you all take a look at the message written all over the game. It speaks of many universal truths as well as problems, and allows the youth to play out each consequence in a role-playing format.
Ankh, Thank you again for reminding me that the power of love can be used as a fierce weapon, I do understand that deep down inside of my father, he is lost and confused as well. He is one, we are all one deep down inside of us, but he does not want to accept the oneness. It is this process in which I want to walk him along, to harmony and happiness. If things get worse, I will consider taking legal action just to protect my family, but for now, due to the fact that I am only 18 and I have no power (money/job) to direct such legal action... and my mother does not as well since my father hogs all the money and so-called "power" in the house; I am going to weather the storm and do what I can to protect my family and negate the negativity. But then again, I also realize that there are people far worse then me, forgive me if I was viewing things to narrow-minded... I still thank my father for the fact that he is here with us. He just needs to accept change, and stop the negativity from polarizing him.
I know it is going to continue; catalysts never dissapear, they only get used and reused in different forms. I am still open to learning out of these events, which constantly repeat again and again in my life. But one thing's different now, I feel as if I need to take action and to be the change in which i dream. I am still going to continue trying to change my father, but in a different, more loving way. However, if he keeps on denying this friendly request, I feel as if I need to take a more serious approach. And I also realize that sometimes, I can't do it alone.... There is so much love out there and how can i deny it? I feel so young and naive... and stupid sometimes. I never knew I trapped so much of my emotions for the sake of others... I need to love myself more in order to help those around me. But I am learning, and I am open to learn, I feel so motivated again!
Thank you so much all of you. Thank you for praying for me, I felt your energies reach me yesterday... As I was sleeping I felt a very warm presence throughout the night, warming and circulating my body. I love you all so much, we are all here for each other. Everything will be revealed sooner or later, everything will be clear and known. But till then when we realize that our this game has ended, I am going to fight, love and enjoy the ride it brings.
L&L