How to forgive the one who has hurt you the most?

[Brittany]

I agree with Confused and Norral. It shouldn't be all on you to fix this situation. It seems like you've done your best to resolve the situation with love and light, but perhaps it is time to get law officials on your side. If you manage to record his behavior, or get witnesses to it, I think it would help you in making a case, since he seems to pretend everything is fine outside the home. If anything, telling a relative, close friend or counselor could open up some options for you. But don't try to do it all on your own.

If you're into the magical stuff, studying one of the various forms of magic might be of help. You could cast simple spells to protect your family and to dispel negativity. Consulting a healer or other spiritual figure could help to heal the damage this has done to you, and possibly help to heal some of the issues plaguing your father as well.

My mother said when I'd have my "fits" my face and voice would completely change. My eyes would get cold as ice and I would speak in a man's voice. But I remember all of it. Even while something else was attempting to puppeteer my body, my soul was still inside of it, and it horrified me. I only say this to bring up the fact that your father is likely hurt and confused as well. Beneath all of that abominable behavior is still a soul that sounds like it needs serious healing. You seem to already be in this vein...I don't detect any hatred being directed toward your father, just his actions, and this is a good thing, my friend. You are already on the right path. Don't let your own heart be poisoned by this circle of hatred as well.

I will keep you in my prayers. I wish there was more I could do.