How to forgive the one who has hurt you the most?

[Ankh]

I've been raised in a negative environment too, where I endured both physical and psychic abuse. Just wanted you to know that I understand what you are talking about.

when my father goes berserk, his eyes change.

I've seen that in my mother's eyes too. It used to scare the s*** out of me.

How can i help my father?

That's the question I've been asking myself many times. As you, I can't speak to (in my case) my mother about it. It is rather not heard or ignored or she is feeling being attacked and wants, naturally, defend herself. So that's the question I asked during one regression I had recently, and the answer was very simple: "Love".

There is no point of the discussion if the one who discussion is for chooses to not listen. It only means that this entity (in your case your father) is not ready for that. So what can you do? Toss aside all your thoughts and completely open your heart, and regardless of what he says and does you radiate love towards him. Is this hard? Oh yes! For most of the people it's almost impossible. But as the love heals your heart, and your wounds, it heals his heart and his wounds too. With that said, there is nothing wrong with, when necessary, put down your foot, bring forth all the strength and power you own in yourself and firmly say: "Enough! I don't accept that!".