Dear Xenos, your story is extremely similar to mine. In fact, it is completely identical. I am not as young as you, but I still suffer from the hold of my father and his alcoholism
Xenos, there is only one answer to this, in my opinion. You need to reach out for help. May be your relatives who can come in and retrieve the situation. My humble suggestion is that please do not go on a guilt-trip thinking that you are not living the LOO in terms of seeking strong help.
If you want to email me, I am there for you, Xenos. Of course, my sweet little brother, I cannot do anything to help you directly. I cannot do anything for you brother and that makes me cry. I am crying deeply inside as I type right now. I am crying for you, Xenos, because I know what pain you are likely to be facing. We are twins in that sense. Please feel free to write to me whenever you want. Meanwhile, just check this web page, for it might resonate with you --
Hero's Journey
I got the above from a fellow member at b4th called zenmaster. I believe you are a hero, Xenos, and you will find that many of the points in that page resonate with your life, in my opinion. The page discusses the archetype of the hero's journey, which informs many of the greatest myths of our world. Reach out to me by email/PM, brother, if you wish to.
I love you very much, Xenos. And I hope you are able to prevail. Please pray for me too.
Xenos, there is only one answer to this, in my opinion. You need to reach out for help. May be your relatives who can come in and retrieve the situation. My humble suggestion is that please do not go on a guilt-trip thinking that you are not living the LOO in terms of seeking strong help.
If you want to email me, I am there for you, Xenos. Of course, my sweet little brother, I cannot do anything to help you directly. I cannot do anything for you brother and that makes me cry. I am crying deeply inside as I type right now. I am crying for you, Xenos, because I know what pain you are likely to be facing. We are twins in that sense. Please feel free to write to me whenever you want. Meanwhile, just check this web page, for it might resonate with you --
Hero's Journey
I got the above from a fellow member at b4th called zenmaster. I believe you are a hero, Xenos, and you will find that many of the points in that page resonate with your life, in my opinion. The page discusses the archetype of the hero's journey, which informs many of the greatest myths of our world. Reach out to me by email/PM, brother, if you wish to.
I love you very much, Xenos. And I hope you are able to prevail. Please pray for me too.