06-07-2009, 11:55 AM
Hello everyone,
I wanted to start this off by greeting everyone in the love/light of our creator. I guess I should begin by giving a little insight into my life up to this point and how I have delt with the current experience of life.
My life has always been one of peace. Even when I was young, nothing it seemed could move me emotionally towards anger (which could be rather frustrating to my parents in times of punishment), rolling with the punches has been second nature it seems. If something was removed from my life, I simply replaced it with another. I found escape in my own imagination of places and things I wished to experience. Of course as time went on this became more and more difficult and I have found myself moving towards self imposed isolation, or "Hermit" as some of my friends like to say.
Another aspect of my life began to emurge, one that confusses me to this day. At around the age of seven I made my decision to begin training to be come a US Marine. I have struggled over this decision only recently (within the past few years), trying to get a understanding of what would move me towards this path. Was this path to help myself or was it meant to be tread in order to help others, this question still lays unanswed. During highschool I stayed devoted to my path of service in the Marines and began every form of training I could to prepare for what was to come. Rockclimbing, skydiving, camping and anything physically active became daily routine.
In febuary 2001, I joined the Marines and not long after that I found myself in Iraq. I will not go into much detail here only to say that this was not the path I wished to follow. After my time in the military I found that my life was moving ever constantly towards an isolation of myself or "hermit" as I am now lovingly called by my best friend. This isolation continues to this day which until this past year was preferrable.
About a year ago I stumbled across a youtube video which has caused a surge in spiritual seeking. As soon as I saw this information I knew it to be true. A moment that should have been pure joy was mixed with an overwhelming sense of failure. Am I a wanderer? I hope with all my heart I am not, for if I am my way has been lost for too long. My username was chosen to help support my hope that I have found my way at last and it is NOT too late. I love all of you with all of my heart and I hope this day and those that follow fill you with an unshakable sense of peace and love.
I wanted to start this off by greeting everyone in the love/light of our creator. I guess I should begin by giving a little insight into my life up to this point and how I have delt with the current experience of life.
My life has always been one of peace. Even when I was young, nothing it seemed could move me emotionally towards anger (which could be rather frustrating to my parents in times of punishment), rolling with the punches has been second nature it seems. If something was removed from my life, I simply replaced it with another. I found escape in my own imagination of places and things I wished to experience. Of course as time went on this became more and more difficult and I have found myself moving towards self imposed isolation, or "Hermit" as some of my friends like to say.
Another aspect of my life began to emurge, one that confusses me to this day. At around the age of seven I made my decision to begin training to be come a US Marine. I have struggled over this decision only recently (within the past few years), trying to get a understanding of what would move me towards this path. Was this path to help myself or was it meant to be tread in order to help others, this question still lays unanswed. During highschool I stayed devoted to my path of service in the Marines and began every form of training I could to prepare for what was to come. Rockclimbing, skydiving, camping and anything physically active became daily routine.
In febuary 2001, I joined the Marines and not long after that I found myself in Iraq. I will not go into much detail here only to say that this was not the path I wished to follow. After my time in the military I found that my life was moving ever constantly towards an isolation of myself or "hermit" as I am now lovingly called by my best friend. This isolation continues to this day which until this past year was preferrable.
About a year ago I stumbled across a youtube video which has caused a surge in spiritual seeking. As soon as I saw this information I knew it to be true. A moment that should have been pure joy was mixed with an overwhelming sense of failure. Am I a wanderer? I hope with all my heart I am not, for if I am my way has been lost for too long. My username was chosen to help support my hope that I have found my way at last and it is NOT too late. I love all of you with all of my heart and I hope this day and those that follow fill you with an unshakable sense of peace and love.